My friend Orabella visited me here in Ottawa a couple weeks ago to see some clients. I just realized I should have a link posted to her site here!
http://mistressorabella.com/
She was very pleased with the fellas she met here in Ottawa and they as well were happy to have such a beautiful domme to worship.
She will likely be back in January or February sometime.. please keep an eye out on craigslist for her ad. We will be offering duos as well during her next visit.
also here's a link to her video work. http://www.kinkyorabella.com
Hi! I'm Carrie Moon, a Canadian adult model and actress. I'm also an adult magazine model with Natural 38F gorgeous breasts. I'm a voluptuous mature Canadian Milf, 5'11" tall. I'm 57 years old as of May 24th 2021
Monday, December 28, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Halloween Oct 31, 2009
I just realized I never posted pics from my halloween adventures! Here there are..
Everything to do with sex show in Toronto Nov 21st, 2009
So this year I attended the sex show as a patron instead of having a booth. It was waaaay more fun. Attending the show can be a bit boring.. it's not the most exciting show unless you get very excited by skinny naked girls in body paint and some very voluptuous (fat cows) in way too tight spandex. BUT for me it was a blast. I get to dress up in very provocative clothing and show off my tits in public. I normally dress very modestly in comparison when wandering the malls.. excepting of course for my recent outing in my wonder woman costume. Yes.. it's always obvious I have big tits.. but it's extremely obvious in such outfits. I was only there for about 4 hours and in that time I got to catch up with friends in the industry I haven't seen since I moved but my biggest surprise was running into my friend Brandon Iron who had just flown in from Calgary where he had been seeing family via L.A. where he calls home to see his lawyer in Toronto.
He's off after that to Budapest to shoot his blowjob scenes he has made famous on his site Brandoniron.com. I have known Brandon for about 2 years or more and he's the most humble, sweet guy in the industry. I have a huge soft spot for him and due to travelling schedules we are rarely in the same city at the same time.. so it was a major pleasant surprise. Being much shorter than myself the first time we took a photo I powerlifted him.. this time I scrunched down and giggled when I did so. I only had about 2 inch heels on in my boots but I still towered over most of my friends except for the girls who had on 10 inch or higher platforms but even then that only made them my same height.
The only shows on the main stage I watched for a few minutes was the circus act of a woman using long scarves hanging from the ceiling and performing acrobatics very gracefully and a bit of one with male strippers. Frankly I have seen most of that with better seating in other venues.. I don't enjoy standing to watch shows. The seminar room whenever I walked by was packed to the hilt I presume because of the amount of seating as well as the topics. See them here if you're interested.
Carrie Moon with Leanne Fluxxx of deadlightdolls
Carrie Moon with Leanne Fluxxx of deadlightdolls
Carrie Moon getting her boobs squeezed by a friend
Carrie Moon with Scott Rhodes and Maxine X
Carrie Moon and Maxine X
Brandon Iron and Carrie Moon
Orabella with Brandon Iron and Carrie Moon
Carrie Moon with Uncle D - Canadian Assman
Carrie Moon with Orabella Dominatrix
Carrie Moon with Nat X Dominatrix
Carrie Moon with Madison Doll from deadlightdolls
He's off after that to Budapest to shoot his blowjob scenes he has made famous on his site Brandoniron.com. I have known Brandon for about 2 years or more and he's the most humble, sweet guy in the industry. I have a huge soft spot for him and due to travelling schedules we are rarely in the same city at the same time.. so it was a major pleasant surprise. Being much shorter than myself the first time we took a photo I powerlifted him.. this time I scrunched down and giggled when I did so. I only had about 2 inch heels on in my boots but I still towered over most of my friends except for the girls who had on 10 inch or higher platforms but even then that only made them my same height.
The only shows on the main stage I watched for a few minutes was the circus act of a woman using long scarves hanging from the ceiling and performing acrobatics very gracefully and a bit of one with male strippers. Frankly I have seen most of that with better seating in other venues.. I don't enjoy standing to watch shows. The seminar room whenever I walked by was packed to the hilt I presume because of the amount of seating as well as the topics. See them here if you're interested.
Carrie Moon with Leanne Fluxxx of deadlightdolls
Carrie Moon with Leanne Fluxxx of deadlightdolls
Carrie Moon getting her boobs squeezed by a friend
Carrie Moon with Scott Rhodes and Maxine X
Carrie Moon and Maxine X
Brandon Iron and Carrie Moon
Orabella with Brandon Iron and Carrie Moon
Carrie Moon with Uncle D - Canadian Assman
Carrie Moon with Orabella Dominatrix
Carrie Moon with Nat X Dominatrix
Carrie Moon with Madison Doll from deadlightdolls
Monday, November 23, 2009
the tutor on jerkygirls (my first shoot for them)
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Monday, November 9, 2009
I don't fake it.. well mostly...
I was surprised to learn the other day.. when I discussed this with a colleague who I assumed incorrectly like me - didn't fake orgasms with clients that she felt providing the fantasy was ok to fake things. She had previously in duos cum very fast with the guys and when I quizzed her about it said she had very active imagination but wouldn't elaborate out of shyness.. Now of course I wonder if she was just a great faker. I too have elaborate fantasies.. some of which I'm too shy to share but others well.. I've even shared them on here. Knowing how much she enjoys her work I'm fairly certain she doesn't fake it all the time but I was surprised that she was okay with faking it with R.
I mean when I've seen couples or done duos the only time I'm certain a girl isn't faking is the 2 times I've seen a woman squirt. Otherwise I frankly don't have enough experience with women who assure me I've just made them cum to know if they are telling the truth. I'm always suprised if/when they do.. because I'm only bi-curious I'm not an expert by any means at pussy eating. Guys have often discussed on escort forums faking and some are sure all escorts and perhaps all women fake where others are sure they have what it takes to make women cum.
But really how do you know? I mean for us it's obvious when a guy cums. But for you guys how do you know for sure? My regular clients know me well enough I think to know that I cum for real when I do.. but often a guy wants to pleasure me in reality beyond his capability to do so.. some even ask what turns me on.. like there's some magic recipe. Usually guys who can rev up my engines never need to ask.. they intuitively know and that's the true magic.
We were discussing R.. who I mentioned in my Good/Bad/Ugly scenario and for different reasons why he irritated us. While she was okay with his personality for the most part and his unrealistic views of our feelings about him she claimed that she liked to 'let them keep their illusions' about it.
While I have to admit that I of course don't normally tell a client that he doesn't turn me on if that's the case.. I would not lie if asked directly. I figure if a guy can read between the lines that he's acceptable and welcome to rebook.. that's good enough at the minimum and if he's off the charts enjoyable.. he can easily figure that out too or I tell him! If he's not adept at figuring out either at all.. he probably shouldn't ask... because more than likely if it's bad news I will tell you.
Like a guy I saw a couple days ago who was only semi-hard but insisted I climb on top instead of getting him hard first with a blow job and then immediately asked me 'how did it feel'.. I couldn't help myself.. I said 'it's kind of soft'. Well don't ask if you don't want the obvious answer! Sometimes I wonder if it's some kind of test to see how honest I am. yeesh.. Plus by this time we were way over the time he had paid for and was asking me to take it slow.. so in my head I guess he deserved the brutal truth.. guys who squeeze 10 or 15 minutes out of me over the 1/2 hr wanting to do everything piss me off.. if you wanted an hour's worth of my time.. book an hour or book 45 minutes if you want something in between.
He managed to cum pretty fast and that's obviously why he didn't want me to blow him or he would have cum with the semi erection and missed out on being inside me. But realistically considering it was his first time with me (and he claimed as well first time outside of a massage parlour)and he had admitted how nervous he was he should have been more realistic.
SO.. do I fake it for real??? hell no... I think it's doing a huge dis-service to a guy to let him think he's blowing your mind in bed when he's 30 miles off base. How will he know when he's on base if he's given credit for wowing you off-base? Plus if he's a regular and he's continually doing something that irritates you why would you encourage it? You'd just have to experience the same thing each time..now having said that I just saw farmer dude today and I felt sorrier for myself today than for him today. He has a heart of gold for sure but he smells from years of smoking.. which not only is on him but in him if you know what I mean. The rough crackly old skin, the age spots that look like karposi's sarcoma. I've been feeling a wee bit under the weather so his smells/irritating voice/laugh were a bit hard to handle today. So.. by seeing him as acceptable I guess I'm encouraging his behaviour.. frankly because like with R.. he's not trainable. They're both way too old and it's not something you can train.
Speaking of training behaviour, I heard of a book once that basically said you train humans like dogs.. reward the behaviour you want to reappear.. (well it was talking about women training men but it applies to all humans). When R asks me if he licked me well.. I say it was fine.. which really means.. are you kidding me? you have no skills whatsoever in that dept.. but yes.. you may keep trying unless you hurt me with your lack of skill. When reinforcing the behaviour you like smile.. now of course I smile with him and he thinks he's making me enjoy myself.. but I smile out of lack of what else to do! He looks at me with such glee in his face that I can't help but smile back.. so I guess I'm reinforcing what I don't want..
What brought this up was in discussing him with this colleague.. I was explaining that he had licked me (I was getting way beyond bored at this point) and I asked him if he was ready to fuck.. whereupon he asked me if I had cum enough yet? I was astonished that he asked me.. what cum? I hadn't even moaned...because I DON'T FAKE IT. I just didn't answer him.. and we fucked. Well we tried.. R is older and a bit of limp dick so not willing to try viagra yet.. we aren't always successful in that dept.
I mean I lie enough in my personal life.. I meet new people all the time at parties/bars etc and I do have friends who I can be completely upfront with that know what I do thank god.. but acquaintences I meet.. I don't blurt out that I'm a hooker when asked what I do. Lieing in my job is part of it. I don't answer when someone asks my real name. I don't tell a client the whole truth about what kind of day I'm having if he asks.. etc etc.. but I don't fake fluid.. so if I'm getting wet...you are doing something right boys :) and thankfully there are more out there who know what they're doing than not! Those are the times I love my job..
Sometimes I go to meet my girlfriends right after a particularly hot session and I'm glowing when I talk abou it.. they look astonished.. b/c you know they expect the bad stories I just spoke about to be the norm.. but really it's a good mixture of both.. and for me the good always outweighs the bad..but isn't the bad more interesting for you readers? really?? it is for me to tell ;)
I mean when I've seen couples or done duos the only time I'm certain a girl isn't faking is the 2 times I've seen a woman squirt. Otherwise I frankly don't have enough experience with women who assure me I've just made them cum to know if they are telling the truth. I'm always suprised if/when they do.. because I'm only bi-curious I'm not an expert by any means at pussy eating. Guys have often discussed on escort forums faking and some are sure all escorts and perhaps all women fake where others are sure they have what it takes to make women cum.
But really how do you know? I mean for us it's obvious when a guy cums. But for you guys how do you know for sure? My regular clients know me well enough I think to know that I cum for real when I do.. but often a guy wants to pleasure me in reality beyond his capability to do so.. some even ask what turns me on.. like there's some magic recipe. Usually guys who can rev up my engines never need to ask.. they intuitively know and that's the true magic.
We were discussing R.. who I mentioned in my Good/Bad/Ugly scenario and for different reasons why he irritated us. While she was okay with his personality for the most part and his unrealistic views of our feelings about him she claimed that she liked to 'let them keep their illusions' about it.
While I have to admit that I of course don't normally tell a client that he doesn't turn me on if that's the case.. I would not lie if asked directly. I figure if a guy can read between the lines that he's acceptable and welcome to rebook.. that's good enough at the minimum and if he's off the charts enjoyable.. he can easily figure that out too or I tell him! If he's not adept at figuring out either at all.. he probably shouldn't ask... because more than likely if it's bad news I will tell you.
Like a guy I saw a couple days ago who was only semi-hard but insisted I climb on top instead of getting him hard first with a blow job and then immediately asked me 'how did it feel'.. I couldn't help myself.. I said 'it's kind of soft'. Well don't ask if you don't want the obvious answer! Sometimes I wonder if it's some kind of test to see how honest I am. yeesh.. Plus by this time we were way over the time he had paid for and was asking me to take it slow.. so in my head I guess he deserved the brutal truth.. guys who squeeze 10 or 15 minutes out of me over the 1/2 hr wanting to do everything piss me off.. if you wanted an hour's worth of my time.. book an hour or book 45 minutes if you want something in between.
He managed to cum pretty fast and that's obviously why he didn't want me to blow him or he would have cum with the semi erection and missed out on being inside me. But realistically considering it was his first time with me (and he claimed as well first time outside of a massage parlour)and he had admitted how nervous he was he should have been more realistic.
SO.. do I fake it for real??? hell no... I think it's doing a huge dis-service to a guy to let him think he's blowing your mind in bed when he's 30 miles off base. How will he know when he's on base if he's given credit for wowing you off-base? Plus if he's a regular and he's continually doing something that irritates you why would you encourage it? You'd just have to experience the same thing each time..now having said that I just saw farmer dude today and I felt sorrier for myself today than for him today. He has a heart of gold for sure but he smells from years of smoking.. which not only is on him but in him if you know what I mean. The rough crackly old skin, the age spots that look like karposi's sarcoma. I've been feeling a wee bit under the weather so his smells/irritating voice/laugh were a bit hard to handle today. So.. by seeing him as acceptable I guess I'm encouraging his behaviour.. frankly because like with R.. he's not trainable. They're both way too old and it's not something you can train.
Speaking of training behaviour, I heard of a book once that basically said you train humans like dogs.. reward the behaviour you want to reappear.. (well it was talking about women training men but it applies to all humans). When R asks me if he licked me well.. I say it was fine.. which really means.. are you kidding me? you have no skills whatsoever in that dept.. but yes.. you may keep trying unless you hurt me with your lack of skill. When reinforcing the behaviour you like smile.. now of course I smile with him and he thinks he's making me enjoy myself.. but I smile out of lack of what else to do! He looks at me with such glee in his face that I can't help but smile back.. so I guess I'm reinforcing what I don't want..
What brought this up was in discussing him with this colleague.. I was explaining that he had licked me (I was getting way beyond bored at this point) and I asked him if he was ready to fuck.. whereupon he asked me if I had cum enough yet? I was astonished that he asked me.. what cum? I hadn't even moaned...because I DON'T FAKE IT. I just didn't answer him.. and we fucked. Well we tried.. R is older and a bit of limp dick so not willing to try viagra yet.. we aren't always successful in that dept.
I mean I lie enough in my personal life.. I meet new people all the time at parties/bars etc and I do have friends who I can be completely upfront with that know what I do thank god.. but acquaintences I meet.. I don't blurt out that I'm a hooker when asked what I do. Lieing in my job is part of it. I don't answer when someone asks my real name. I don't tell a client the whole truth about what kind of day I'm having if he asks.. etc etc.. but I don't fake fluid.. so if I'm getting wet...you are doing something right boys :) and thankfully there are more out there who know what they're doing than not! Those are the times I love my job..
Sometimes I go to meet my girlfriends right after a particularly hot session and I'm glowing when I talk abou it.. they look astonished.. b/c you know they expect the bad stories I just spoke about to be the norm.. but really it's a good mixture of both.. and for me the good always outweighs the bad..but isn't the bad more interesting for you readers? really?? it is for me to tell ;)
back to porn.. my scene from Fuck my Mom and Me
This was a fun scene to shoot.. The girl they initally had to shoot with me was apparently not enough like me in looks whereas this girl was so adorable and could have been my daughter had I ever had one. She immediately turned on the high energy fucking when the camera was rolling and at certain points I realized I was watching her fuck and not fucking/playing myself! 3somes at the best of times can leave you confused as to what goes where and with whom to play.. but I wasn't allowed to play with her sexually at all in this scene because of incest issues..even though obviously we were only acting as mother and daughter. The male actor was a great guy to work with and ended up hiring me to work when he was directing the "I wanna cum inside your mom" video. Mario was fun and professional and we hit it off as friends later on... completely different experience from shooting my friends hot mom.. where the guy was a complete robot and had such a hard time coming it made my job waaaayyy more difficult than it had to be. I would be easily convinced that that dude was not only on viagra but other 'recreational drugs' as well as likely having had no sleep/partying all night long before the shoot. I would never shoot with him again. All in all I had mostly fun shoots.. but him and the actor from I wanna cum inside your mom are 2 guys I would not shoot with again. For this film however I enjoyed myself and would shoot with Mario again anytime.. not sure if my enjoyment is genuine? go to 30 minutes in and see how red my neck is..Anyway.. here it is!
Fuck My Mom and Me 3
Fuck My Mom and Me 3
what's in H1N1?
here's a blog I was recently introduced to that lists the ingredients in this vaccine as well as links to other sources that may help educate those still on the fence. HERE
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
top 10 reasons I became a hooker
first of all.. it's funny how friends/admirers and acquaintances cringe when I call myself a hooker.. but remember xavier hollander? the happy hooker? It's like whore.. it's okay when it's used as a term of employment or endearment. Any word has a negative connotation when you use it to hurt someone... so don't use words to hurt people! I love the term hooker. I hate S.P. (service provider) as I think of ISP. Escort is okay.. and most of my friends etc prefer this but hooker makes me twinkle when I say it. I picture the girls in saloons in the old days or the girls who would meet the boys as they came off of the ships. I'm sure I must have done this in a past life..
anyway.. here we go!
10. I love being able to work literally for an hour or 2 a day and the rest of the day is for me.
9. Never knowing who I'm going to meet (obviously with new clients). It's like opening a surprise bag of candy like I used to do when I was a kid. Yes you might be getting a useless plastic ring but you still want to try again! Other times you score :p
8. The flattery. I get emails from guys loving my pics and telling me how they've jerked off to my pics. Sure that's flattering to a point.. but when a guy books me and in person tells me how he's fantasized about this meeting for so long and I can fulfil that fantasy.. that's satisfying. (this does not mean I look forward to random emails from guys telling me they jerk off to my pics... so don't jump to email me this)
7. The excitement. I can be in a bar or even a mall or walking the street and smile at someone.. knowing in some cases that person is fantasizing about what it would be like to fuck me. Any one of them could book me and it's like having met with them in a bar bathroom.. not that I've ever done that *wink*
6. The shopping! Of course shopping for clothes for my job is fun.. but the extra money this job puts in my pocket lets me easily splurge on things for myself.
5. The variety. Sure I enjoy having sex with someone I love in a way that I can't enjoy with clients.. but the variety of gentlemen callers is a lovely spice of it's own.
4. The anonymity. No.. my real name is not Carrie Moon.. and no you may not find out my real name. BUT I love being Carrie Moon. I've had the name Carrie for literally 20+ years.. almost 1/2 my adult life. I picked it out.. so I love it. I loved playing dressup as a kid. I love Halloween.. I get to be in 'costume' every day of my life. I've probably heard my name called Carrie more than my own name in my life.. and I do enjoy it.
3. The secret life. Yes.. having a secret life is annoying a lot of the time. I don't tell people what I do in most social circles but my main friends/family know what I do.. it's very stressful. But everything has 2 sides and a silver lining. Having a secret life is a bit delicious in it's own way.
2. THE MONEY! of course this is the reason initially I got into this line of work.. it is lucrative and I needed to find a way to pay for my tuition and living costs when I did my post grad. That reason isn't going to change. Would I still do it if I were getting paid what I do in an office? say..40 grand/year? hmmm. hard to say.. but probably.. because the Number 1 reason I am a hooker>>>
1. I'm My Own Boss!! While I'm a team player and a great assistant or even a trainer and I've worked in several different industries over the years I don't have anyone to tell me what to do. I have a great work ethic and can motivate myself fine. I have the choice at any point in time to say.. I don't want this client. I rarely exercise this right.. very rarely.. but having it is the point. I can chose the hours I want to be available. I can choose the acts I wish to participate in and how I wish to engage in them. Freedom is the most desirable aspect of this job and I have it in spades. I have the freedom to chose how I view my job.. as do we all and I love my job.
Oops.. the other number 1 reason I love my job. The sex! Yes.. even bad sex can be good..
next blog on that.. the good the bad and the ugly :)
anyway.. here we go!
10. I love being able to work literally for an hour or 2 a day and the rest of the day is for me.
9. Never knowing who I'm going to meet (obviously with new clients). It's like opening a surprise bag of candy like I used to do when I was a kid. Yes you might be getting a useless plastic ring but you still want to try again! Other times you score :p
8. The flattery. I get emails from guys loving my pics and telling me how they've jerked off to my pics. Sure that's flattering to a point.. but when a guy books me and in person tells me how he's fantasized about this meeting for so long and I can fulfil that fantasy.. that's satisfying. (this does not mean I look forward to random emails from guys telling me they jerk off to my pics... so don't jump to email me this)
7. The excitement. I can be in a bar or even a mall or walking the street and smile at someone.. knowing in some cases that person is fantasizing about what it would be like to fuck me. Any one of them could book me and it's like having met with them in a bar bathroom.. not that I've ever done that *wink*
6. The shopping! Of course shopping for clothes for my job is fun.. but the extra money this job puts in my pocket lets me easily splurge on things for myself.
5. The variety. Sure I enjoy having sex with someone I love in a way that I can't enjoy with clients.. but the variety of gentlemen callers is a lovely spice of it's own.
4. The anonymity. No.. my real name is not Carrie Moon.. and no you may not find out my real name. BUT I love being Carrie Moon. I've had the name Carrie for literally 20+ years.. almost 1/2 my adult life. I picked it out.. so I love it. I loved playing dressup as a kid. I love Halloween.. I get to be in 'costume' every day of my life. I've probably heard my name called Carrie more than my own name in my life.. and I do enjoy it.
3. The secret life. Yes.. having a secret life is annoying a lot of the time. I don't tell people what I do in most social circles but my main friends/family know what I do.. it's very stressful. But everything has 2 sides and a silver lining. Having a secret life is a bit delicious in it's own way.
2. THE MONEY! of course this is the reason initially I got into this line of work.. it is lucrative and I needed to find a way to pay for my tuition and living costs when I did my post grad. That reason isn't going to change. Would I still do it if I were getting paid what I do in an office? say..40 grand/year? hmmm. hard to say.. but probably.. because the Number 1 reason I am a hooker>>>
1. I'm My Own Boss!! While I'm a team player and a great assistant or even a trainer and I've worked in several different industries over the years I don't have anyone to tell me what to do. I have a great work ethic and can motivate myself fine. I have the choice at any point in time to say.. I don't want this client. I rarely exercise this right.. very rarely.. but having it is the point. I can chose the hours I want to be available. I can choose the acts I wish to participate in and how I wish to engage in them. Freedom is the most desirable aspect of this job and I have it in spades. I have the freedom to chose how I view my job.. as do we all and I love my job.
Oops.. the other number 1 reason I love my job. The sex! Yes.. even bad sex can be good..
next blog on that.. the good the bad and the ugly :)
Desperate Mothers and Wives 9 - my scene
desperate mothers and wives 9
this was my last movie I filmed in LA before heading back to Toronto last May. I blogged about my experience.. where I went out with a bang fucking the director/producer each for a few minutes and blowing the camera man :) This whole group of hotties (many of them also star in movies as well as produce them) were a blast to hang out with.
this was my last movie I filmed in LA before heading back to Toronto last May. I blogged about my experience.. where I went out with a bang fucking the director/producer each for a few minutes and blowing the camera man :) This whole group of hotties (many of them also star in movies as well as produce them) were a blast to hang out with.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
exposing big pharma/vaccines and ''the living matrix'' on healing
http://www.perxinfo.org/perx/documentary.html is a documentary that reveals off-label marketing deceptions of Big Pharma.
This is a great movie called The Living Matrix. Here's the movie trailer on youtube
To download the whole movie (segments are missing on youtube) go to VEOH and install their video player and you will be then able to download the whole movie for free.
If you don't wish to install that player 6 of 8 parts are on youtube. 1 and 3 are on disclose tv. here is part one
Another great and important movie/documentary which is on vaccines by Gary Null Phd is Vaccine Nation ---> here
This is a great movie called The Living Matrix. Here's the movie trailer on youtube
To download the whole movie (segments are missing on youtube) go to VEOH and install their video player and you will be then able to download the whole movie for free.
If you don't wish to install that player 6 of 8 parts are on youtube. 1 and 3 are on disclose tv. here is part one
Another great and important movie/documentary which is on vaccines by Gary Null Phd is Vaccine Nation ---> here
Saturday, October 3, 2009
'real big tits 37' - clip posted on xhamster of my movie
Thursday, September 17, 2009
TIFF party in Toronto
I bought a new dress.. looked damn good! It was cold and the party was very uninspired but at least I have the new dress :) Glad to be back home in Ottawa in my warm bed.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
trip to mayan riviera
I just got into Toronto airport at 2 am this morning after spending a lovely week in the mayan riviera at bluebay grande esmerelda. After getting over the obvious misrepresentation on the website of the hotel's amenities I relaxed into a wonderful visit with new friends and a gorgeous pool. disappointments? no working elevator in our building, only one kind of beer which I got used to after I gave up on the way oversugared juices and mixed drinks, a ceiling fan that seemed to have a ghost controlling it, a moldy smell from the humidity I guess and a horrible cleaning fluid smell/insecticide spray. OH! and let me not forget karaoke was supposed to be on wednesday and saturday.. and did not materialize. I will however remember the wonderful new friends I made and the gorgeous hot weather/ocean and scenery. I also got some amazing silver jewelry in tanzanite with blue opal, turquoise in bright lime green as well as blue and some coral earrings/pendants. I didn't bother with t-shirts/blankets, glass or pottery having bought that kind of stuff on a previous trip 15 years ago.
Here is a bikini pic and my tan lines front and back. What? you thought I would post pics of mayan ruins?
Here is a bikini pic and my tan lines front and back. What? you thought I would post pics of mayan ruins?
Thursday, August 20, 2009
on politics
please read the previous post on quantum physics before reading this :)
My politics.. it's hard to explain because I always thought I wasn't political. I don't follow local politics. I don't vote. GASP.. Let me tell you why.
I always knew that unless we were voting outside of what to do for the weekend.. or in public school events.. my vote meant nothing. Why do you ask? I knew it was a matter of choosing one liar over another and what's the point of putting my support behind that.
Now you may say.. look at Obama! If it were about 1-2 years ago I would have agreed with you.. Now however.. well I'm getting out of the matrix. The matrix of deception that media leads us into whatever the powers that be want us to know. This includes our ridiculous notion that the medical establishment has our best interests at heart.. that the FDA (or health canada) is there to protect us. It includes our belief that we are genetically predisposed to illnesses.. when in fact we are constantly being poisoned.
Please watch Wendy Mesley's expose on the multi-billion dollar industry on cancer. (if this loads too slow go here) This is a 20 minute show and Wendy when diagnosed with Cancer did a search on why the incidence of cancer is so high in North America. If you haven't watched it you will learn a lot. However it is the tip of the iceberg.
Watch how Monsanto makes sure we don't know how evil an empire it is..
please watch this short intro to a new movie called Believers Beware - the Cause of Effect
What does this have to do with politics?
I'm going to provide a lot of documentaries for you to watch so you can start to lift the veil of why the government and how the government controls what we are told in the media to keep us numbed.. food is the major reason. MSG, aspertame, HFCS (high fructose corn syrup) and refined sugar keep us fatigued, numb our brains and keep us ill with more than just diabetes, MS and ADHD.. they cause a lot more illnesses than the obvious ones.
I was trained as a naturopath that the original meaning of the word doctor was teacher. Teach a person how to take care of their own bodies. Is that how our modern medicine works? nope! we are told not to listen to ourselves.. but rather to let the doctor provide the diagnosis, medicine and surgery for us. Put all our trust in them. We are taught that we are dumb... and we believe the lie.. but think we are smart because we get an education.
People are so impressed to learn that I have a university degree from Queen's and a post-graduate degree in naturopathic medicine. We live in a culture that places waaaay too much emphasis on paper accreditation rather than what a person really knows. I believed the hype too for a while.. but thanks to the internet my education in the truth is growing rapidly.
SO! For politics.. for the REAL news. I subscribe to brasscheck tv Look for Robert Kennedy Jr. View videos on the banking system.
Ron Paul.. the person who if the gov't were actually honest would be president.. who predicted the fall of the banking system years ago! Paulitics.. he's awesome.. Here's his site 1 and 2
If you think your vote actually means shit.. watch CIA agent Chip Tatum (now presumed murdered by the CIA)on google video or on youtube in 8 parts.
If you haven't already watched zeitgeist.. it's a must see. Watch it here on youtube. Here's the federal reserve portion in 5 parts and 911 in 4 parts and religion in 3 parts. Here it is as the whole movie
and zeitgeist part 2 - the addendum
The movie is also available on google video or at their website zeitgeistmovie.com
then! watch hijacking humanity
Freedom to Fascism
view this.. Money as Debt to find out how we are slaves to the banks.
and then go here to freedomclubusa to find out how not to be slaves. and here for some interesting tidbits as well from a Canadian at thinkfree.ca
and the cause of effect.com
believe it or not ... I will have more to add later :)
My politics.. it's hard to explain because I always thought I wasn't political. I don't follow local politics. I don't vote. GASP.. Let me tell you why.
I always knew that unless we were voting outside of what to do for the weekend.. or in public school events.. my vote meant nothing. Why do you ask? I knew it was a matter of choosing one liar over another and what's the point of putting my support behind that.
Now you may say.. look at Obama! If it were about 1-2 years ago I would have agreed with you.. Now however.. well I'm getting out of the matrix. The matrix of deception that media leads us into whatever the powers that be want us to know. This includes our ridiculous notion that the medical establishment has our best interests at heart.. that the FDA (or health canada) is there to protect us. It includes our belief that we are genetically predisposed to illnesses.. when in fact we are constantly being poisoned.
Please watch Wendy Mesley's expose on the multi-billion dollar industry on cancer. (if this loads too slow go here) This is a 20 minute show and Wendy when diagnosed with Cancer did a search on why the incidence of cancer is so high in North America. If you haven't watched it you will learn a lot. However it is the tip of the iceberg.
Watch how Monsanto makes sure we don't know how evil an empire it is..
please watch this short intro to a new movie called Believers Beware - the Cause of Effect
What does this have to do with politics?
I'm going to provide a lot of documentaries for you to watch so you can start to lift the veil of why the government and how the government controls what we are told in the media to keep us numbed.. food is the major reason. MSG, aspertame, HFCS (high fructose corn syrup) and refined sugar keep us fatigued, numb our brains and keep us ill with more than just diabetes, MS and ADHD.. they cause a lot more illnesses than the obvious ones.
I was trained as a naturopath that the original meaning of the word doctor was teacher. Teach a person how to take care of their own bodies. Is that how our modern medicine works? nope! we are told not to listen to ourselves.. but rather to let the doctor provide the diagnosis, medicine and surgery for us. Put all our trust in them. We are taught that we are dumb... and we believe the lie.. but think we are smart because we get an education.
People are so impressed to learn that I have a university degree from Queen's and a post-graduate degree in naturopathic medicine. We live in a culture that places waaaay too much emphasis on paper accreditation rather than what a person really knows. I believed the hype too for a while.. but thanks to the internet my education in the truth is growing rapidly.
SO! For politics.. for the REAL news. I subscribe to brasscheck tv Look for Robert Kennedy Jr. View videos on the banking system.
Ron Paul.. the person who if the gov't were actually honest would be president.. who predicted the fall of the banking system years ago! Paulitics.. he's awesome.. Here's his site 1 and 2
If you think your vote actually means shit.. watch CIA agent Chip Tatum (now presumed murdered by the CIA)on google video or on youtube in 8 parts.
If you haven't already watched zeitgeist.. it's a must see. Watch it here on youtube. Here's the federal reserve portion in 5 parts and 911 in 4 parts and religion in 3 parts. Here it is as the whole movie
and zeitgeist part 2 - the addendum
The movie is also available on google video or at their website zeitgeistmovie.com
then! watch hijacking humanity
Freedom to Fascism
view this.. Money as Debt to find out how we are slaves to the banks.
and then go here to freedomclubusa to find out how not to be slaves. and here for some interesting tidbits as well from a Canadian at thinkfree.ca
and the cause of effect.com
believe it or not ... I will have more to add later :)
Quantum physics
So I know I said I would talk about politics after my post on health.. but I decided to talk first about spirituality.. because it relates to politics and health.
First of all.. we are not merely flesh and blood. We are spirit bodies who have chosen to go to 'school' here on earth. Now why in the heck would we do that? Good question and I still don't get it. Apparently.. according to the more spiritually advanced people I read/watch on youtube or tv... we are dumb enough and bold enough to volunteer for such a task. Don't believe me? that's okay.. if you are curious about this stuff here are some people you might want to listen to... Sylvia Brown, John Edwards (not the politician - the medium). You may think it's all bunk.. but really watch them for an hour or so.. what have you got to lose? you might be blown away.
next! Have you watched 'what the bleep do we know'? here are some links whatthebleep trailer
movie in parts on veoh and of course their website whatthebleep
once you watch that.. search for dr emoto's stuff on water. Watch water the great mystery.. to buy go here on bleepstore.com or to view on google videos go here
now don't blame me if none of these links are valid.. do your own research.. but always feel free to email me as well if you have others you feel are entertaining and informative and I'm happy to forward links to you as well if you email me. This is a huge passion of mine and I find it weird that some people pay attention to only what is in front of their noses and never look deeper.
Next. If you watched or read emoto's stuff on hidden messages in water you will know how important words are to water.. and therefore everything in the world! Put up the most powerful words in your house. Gratitude, Love, Thank you. Merci or my favorite in Kanji... in any language! Your body's chi will thank you and things will start coming your way.. which brings me to the secret movie. preview here
Watch this movie and then find books on the law of attraction. It works!
Dr. Emoto's work was profoundly fascinating.. he took water and flash froze it to make in effect a snowflake and showed that water when shown words would react with an image to reflect that word. Here's an image of prayer
and Love and Gratitude
and Truth
Here's a chidren's book pdf version of Hidden Messages in Water. Cute and it's thorough.
picture book
and here's emoto's site hado.net and masaru-emoto
so what? oh there's way more... but that's enough for now! enjoy :)
First of all.. we are not merely flesh and blood. We are spirit bodies who have chosen to go to 'school' here on earth. Now why in the heck would we do that? Good question and I still don't get it. Apparently.. according to the more spiritually advanced people I read/watch on youtube or tv... we are dumb enough and bold enough to volunteer for such a task. Don't believe me? that's okay.. if you are curious about this stuff here are some people you might want to listen to... Sylvia Brown, John Edwards (not the politician - the medium). You may think it's all bunk.. but really watch them for an hour or so.. what have you got to lose? you might be blown away.
next! Have you watched 'what the bleep do we know'? here are some links whatthebleep trailer
movie in parts on veoh and of course their website whatthebleep
once you watch that.. search for dr emoto's stuff on water. Watch water the great mystery.. to buy go here on bleepstore.com or to view on google videos go here
now don't blame me if none of these links are valid.. do your own research.. but always feel free to email me as well if you have others you feel are entertaining and informative and I'm happy to forward links to you as well if you email me. This is a huge passion of mine and I find it weird that some people pay attention to only what is in front of their noses and never look deeper.
Next. If you watched or read emoto's stuff on hidden messages in water you will know how important words are to water.. and therefore everything in the world! Put up the most powerful words in your house. Gratitude, Love, Thank you. Merci or my favorite in Kanji... in any language! Your body's chi will thank you and things will start coming your way.. which brings me to the secret movie. preview here
Watch this movie and then find books on the law of attraction. It works!
Dr. Emoto's work was profoundly fascinating.. he took water and flash froze it to make in effect a snowflake and showed that water when shown words would react with an image to reflect that word. Here's an image of prayer
and Love and Gratitude
and Truth
Here's a chidren's book pdf version of Hidden Messages in Water. Cute and it's thorough.
picture book
and here's emoto's site hado.net and masaru-emoto
so what? oh there's way more... but that's enough for now! enjoy :)
not the type to pay for it? really???
I'm a member of a few different sites that I mostly don't visit.. such as fetlife, xpeeps, femdomme. I only check on them when I get a post or an email and even then sometimes not..
anyway.. I get fans on myspace or facebook (which I do visit regularly) sometimes ask me if they can meet me.. I then direct them to my escort site. Some are grateful to know it's that simple.. whereas others say I'm not the type to pay for it or not if I have to pay for it. What then? Only if I desire you so much that I want to give you a freebee? or because I'm the hooker with a heart of gold who gives free sessions to students or those on fixed incomes.
You know.. that statement has always bothered me when people say that. What type is that? someone who doesn't buy themselves gifts? Do you treat yourself to a massage? no? how about new clothes/shoes.. a nice dinner? a good haircut?
Seeing an escort is a luxury service you treat yourself to. But if you can't afford it then that's reasonable.. I can't afford a lexus.. so I don't buy one :)
I don't pay for haircuts normally.. I cut my own hair..so what!
am I a type? hmmmmm.
besides..HAVING to pay for an encounter?? It's a privelege not a chore. No more than paying for a therapist appt or anything else. When you put it that way it's like saying you are too good to pay for something. Do you not pay for a good meal in a restaurant that someone has prepared or do you offend them also by saying you're not the type to pay for a meal?
It's really not about offending anyway.. it's about an arrogant misguided attitude that usually is from guys who think they are so charming or gorgeous that they should get any woman they want including you. What a proof of how gorgeous/charming they are that a woman who has chosen to have sex professionally chooses them to give a freebee.. uh. Get over yourself. Arrogance is such a turnoff! Not only does that attitude get a no-go for free.. not even if you paid me :)
anyway.. I get fans on myspace or facebook (which I do visit regularly) sometimes ask me if they can meet me.. I then direct them to my escort site. Some are grateful to know it's that simple.. whereas others say I'm not the type to pay for it or not if I have to pay for it. What then? Only if I desire you so much that I want to give you a freebee? or because I'm the hooker with a heart of gold who gives free sessions to students or those on fixed incomes.
You know.. that statement has always bothered me when people say that. What type is that? someone who doesn't buy themselves gifts? Do you treat yourself to a massage? no? how about new clothes/shoes.. a nice dinner? a good haircut?
Seeing an escort is a luxury service you treat yourself to. But if you can't afford it then that's reasonable.. I can't afford a lexus.. so I don't buy one :)
I don't pay for haircuts normally.. I cut my own hair..so what!
am I a type? hmmmmm.
besides..HAVING to pay for an encounter?? It's a privelege not a chore. No more than paying for a therapist appt or anything else. When you put it that way it's like saying you are too good to pay for something. Do you not pay for a good meal in a restaurant that someone has prepared or do you offend them also by saying you're not the type to pay for a meal?
It's really not about offending anyway.. it's about an arrogant misguided attitude that usually is from guys who think they are so charming or gorgeous that they should get any woman they want including you. What a proof of how gorgeous/charming they are that a woman who has chosen to have sex professionally chooses them to give a freebee.. uh. Get over yourself. Arrogance is such a turnoff! Not only does that attitude get a no-go for free.. not even if you paid me :)
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
pussy chewers rant
this hurts!!!! thankfully it's rare but some guys suck on my inner labia lips like they are trying to get juice out of a piece of fruit. Take a good look at the vulva of a woman. It's extremely tender flesh and obviously doesn't like to be bitten. In my case I may be more sensitive that some other women but in general I don't like anywomen like to be sucked like that. Licked... hell yes! but it feels like I'm being pinched when sucked that hard. I'm not into pain.
"chewing".. is a term my friend who's been long retired from escorting -Shannon coined to me and I howled with laughter when I realized what she meant by the term. Totally describes what they're doing.. also keep in mind that when you're down there if you've forgotten or it's not possible to shave before your appointment.. don't rub your chin in my pussy dammit! that's like sandpaper. Again.. thankfully this is rare.. most guys have enough common sense to know this :)
now.. for pussy pics.. see my other posts. Get a good look and remember to treat with lots of tongue and saliva. Perhaps practice with a mango?*cheesy grin*
"chewing".. is a term my friend who's been long retired from escorting -Shannon coined to me and I howled with laughter when I realized what she meant by the term. Totally describes what they're doing.. also keep in mind that when you're down there if you've forgotten or it's not possible to shave before your appointment.. don't rub your chin in my pussy dammit! that's like sandpaper. Again.. thankfully this is rare.. most guys have enough common sense to know this :)
now.. for pussy pics.. see my other posts. Get a good look and remember to treat with lots of tongue and saliva. Perhaps practice with a mango?*cheesy grin*
health
Most of you know that I got into the adult industry as an escort to put myself thru naturopathic medical school some 20 years ago.. and when we get into discussions on health.. many of my clients go home with prescriptions or books to read or websites to view.. Some even go home with relationship advice.. funny hey? getting relationship advice from a hooker? awww.. don't get offended by the work hooker. It's okay when I use it :)
Anyway.. I thought it was about time since I've exposed myself in virtually every naked pose possible.. that I talk a abit about my other passions. Health.. health care is not really focused on in our culture. We focus on medical care. Medical care is a great industry to get into if you want to make money and enjoy seeing sick people. Health care on the other hand is about education. Please watch this clip. I'm very excited to see this movie soon.
Processed People.
and then this one.
I will have plenty more to add to this particular post as time goes on..
and then another post on my politics will follow.
Oh! and here is my absolute favorite site.. I use it as my homepage. Natural News and I also like and subscribe to Dr. Mercola I highly recommend you subscribe to both as well :)
for those of you interested in possibly changing your diet a wee bit.. wondering if sugar might be a problem? check this out
Anyway.. I thought it was about time since I've exposed myself in virtually every naked pose possible.. that I talk a abit about my other passions. Health.. health care is not really focused on in our culture. We focus on medical care. Medical care is a great industry to get into if you want to make money and enjoy seeing sick people. Health care on the other hand is about education. Please watch this clip. I'm very excited to see this movie soon.
Processed People.
and then this one.
I will have plenty more to add to this particular post as time goes on..
and then another post on my politics will follow.
Oh! and here is my absolute favorite site.. I use it as my homepage. Natural News and I also like and subscribe to Dr. Mercola I highly recommend you subscribe to both as well :)
for those of you interested in possibly changing your diet a wee bit.. wondering if sugar might be a problem? check this out
Monday, August 17, 2009
tummy gone?
After a seminar this past weekend on health and wealth.. I am encouraged to get more serious about my rebounding. and I'm also starting the master cleanse - yikes!
I love lemons anyway.. so it's not that big of a deal. However not eating fun food is a bit difficult for me never mind quitting my morning coffee! I'm starting today with the juice but this afternoon had to have some veggies to quell my headache as I detox. Plus I have a client coming shortly and I don't want to be having my tummy grumble or being thinking about food instead of bedroom antics.
It got me to thinking.. I've been keeping weight on on purpose these last few years because I like to keep my tits at their fullest for my porn and my clients who often gasp at how large they are. If I lose a few pounds that will be great for my trip to Mexico as I'll be living in my bikinis while there. Although I don't mind my tummy too much I do wish it were a bit smaller so I can wear more outfits! But I can't have it both ways.. unless I get lipo which is really not an option since surgery is only an option for me in an emergency. (I would never go under anesthesia for cosmetic reasons). So.. if I lose weight on my tummy.. I will also loose a bit on my tits.. but it will be barely noticable...hopefully! That is if I stick to the diet...time will tell.
Anyway.. enough about me. Look at the links on detox and rebounding. It's a simple way to keep fit and improve your general health/well-being.. brought to you by your friendly neighbourhood MILF/naturopath :)
I love lemons anyway.. so it's not that big of a deal. However not eating fun food is a bit difficult for me never mind quitting my morning coffee! I'm starting today with the juice but this afternoon had to have some veggies to quell my headache as I detox. Plus I have a client coming shortly and I don't want to be having my tummy grumble or being thinking about food instead of bedroom antics.
It got me to thinking.. I've been keeping weight on on purpose these last few years because I like to keep my tits at their fullest for my porn and my clients who often gasp at how large they are. If I lose a few pounds that will be great for my trip to Mexico as I'll be living in my bikinis while there. Although I don't mind my tummy too much I do wish it were a bit smaller so I can wear more outfits! But I can't have it both ways.. unless I get lipo which is really not an option since surgery is only an option for me in an emergency. (I would never go under anesthesia for cosmetic reasons). So.. if I lose weight on my tummy.. I will also loose a bit on my tits.. but it will be barely noticable...hopefully! That is if I stick to the diet...time will tell.
Anyway.. enough about me. Look at the links on detox and rebounding. It's a simple way to keep fit and improve your general health/well-being.. brought to you by your friendly neighbourhood MILF/naturopath :)
why pussy tastes good..
At least I think this is why...
I'm just watching an Oprah repeat.. I'd watched before but since they didn't discuss this on the oprah website
It's a very interesting scientific explanation of attraction between men and women.. interesting that they didn't cover homosexual attraction patterns.. hmmm. This is pretty much heterosexually based except for a few things like the symmetry of the face and the genetic superiority.
Anyway.. since they didn't have on the website the part discussed where women who are on the birth control pill and therefore don't ovulate produce less copulins I thought I'd see what else I could find about it! On the show Dr. Laura Berman who I love.. said that strippers who were on the birth control pill made less tips than girls who weren't... and boom. I thought another good reason not to be on it. I can't be on it because it's frankly poisonous to my body so thank god for condoms!
So.. take a look at this website on copulins.
You'll see that "Copulins are an exclusively female group of pheromones. There are secreted into the vagina at the optimum ratios during ovulation with the aim of encouraging men to desire to copulate. This group of pheromones primarily consists of fatty acids that would serve little to no function on there own, but in combination they have been shown to increase testosterone levels in men by 150% (Astrid Jutte study). This increase in testosterone may cause feelings of arousal in men if a woman is present. It is said that once a man smells Copulins on a woman she is deemed to be more attractive."
Which got me to thinking.. most of my clients love going down on me.. they love the smell.. they love the taste and they love the look of my pussy. I don't find it nearly as arousing as they do but I do love playing with it! Now I know why.. it's because they small my copulins and immediately get hard and find me more attractive. I guess I can also be smelled from afar.. or in photos huh? tee hee..
I'm just watching an Oprah repeat.. I'd watched before but since they didn't discuss this on the oprah website
It's a very interesting scientific explanation of attraction between men and women.. interesting that they didn't cover homosexual attraction patterns.. hmmm. This is pretty much heterosexually based except for a few things like the symmetry of the face and the genetic superiority.
Anyway.. since they didn't have on the website the part discussed where women who are on the birth control pill and therefore don't ovulate produce less copulins I thought I'd see what else I could find about it! On the show Dr. Laura Berman who I love.. said that strippers who were on the birth control pill made less tips than girls who weren't... and boom. I thought another good reason not to be on it. I can't be on it because it's frankly poisonous to my body so thank god for condoms!
So.. take a look at this website on copulins.
You'll see that "Copulins are an exclusively female group of pheromones. There are secreted into the vagina at the optimum ratios during ovulation with the aim of encouraging men to desire to copulate. This group of pheromones primarily consists of fatty acids that would serve little to no function on there own, but in combination they have been shown to increase testosterone levels in men by 150% (Astrid Jutte study). This increase in testosterone may cause feelings of arousal in men if a woman is present. It is said that once a man smells Copulins on a woman she is deemed to be more attractive."
Which got me to thinking.. most of my clients love going down on me.. they love the smell.. they love the taste and they love the look of my pussy. I don't find it nearly as arousing as they do but I do love playing with it! Now I know why.. it's because they small my copulins and immediately get hard and find me more attractive. I guess I can also be smelled from afar.. or in photos huh? tee hee..
Sunday, August 16, 2009
on modesty
recently I've made acquaintance with a musician who when I complimented him was surprised and called it modesty. I was having a conversation about how there's no such thing as an original thought with someone being that we are all connected to a universal source that sends us thoughts and then we of course foolishly think that they are our own. While I don't like arrogance one little bit I think it ridiculous to feel ashamed to say thank-you or you might even take that further and say that to say thank-you for a compliment would be ridiculous as well.. because you can't take credit for your talent or your beauty or even in reality your work ethic because that was all given to you! For instance.. when someone says I have a beautiful smile or great tits.. I often surprise them by saying enthusiastically 'I know!!'
It's not like I can take credit for anything I've received genetically and if I smile it's because I'm predisposed to want people to like me and have learned that if I'm friendly they will be attracted to me... therefore I'm not modest in that regard.
Where I am modest is in regards to clothing... I have only in my last decade or so become more comfortable with showing off in public with regards to my cleavage or wearing tighter skirts and such. If I were on 'what not to wear' or something like that they might say I dress too young for my age but I can get away with it.. or so I think/am told :)
I don't wear the really low-cut tops however that I do at porn show events or for incalls.. and I always dress modestly for outcalls preferring to bring whatever outfit may be requested with me to the clients hotel room/home. That kind of modesty I subscribe to.... a time and a place for everything.
I was at a weekend mini-seminar/birthday gathering/camping event with about 30 people.. we went swimming and I almost went in my birthday suit (naked) but realized with the particular set of people involved that would not be appropriate and in anticpation brought my bikini to wear.. that was not the case obviously at the party J threw a few weekends ago in the hottub.. another example of modesty in action.
Oh.. and I love compliments on my singing.. and say thank-you for that.. I'm less confident on matters of skill than I am on physical features if that makes sense.. plus my singing skill varies quite a bit whereas well my tits....always look stupendous don't you agree??
It's not like I can take credit for anything I've received genetically and if I smile it's because I'm predisposed to want people to like me and have learned that if I'm friendly they will be attracted to me... therefore I'm not modest in that regard.
Where I am modest is in regards to clothing... I have only in my last decade or so become more comfortable with showing off in public with regards to my cleavage or wearing tighter skirts and such. If I were on 'what not to wear' or something like that they might say I dress too young for my age but I can get away with it.. or so I think/am told :)
I don't wear the really low-cut tops however that I do at porn show events or for incalls.. and I always dress modestly for outcalls preferring to bring whatever outfit may be requested with me to the clients hotel room/home. That kind of modesty I subscribe to.... a time and a place for everything.
I was at a weekend mini-seminar/birthday gathering/camping event with about 30 people.. we went swimming and I almost went in my birthday suit (naked) but realized with the particular set of people involved that would not be appropriate and in anticpation brought my bikini to wear.. that was not the case obviously at the party J threw a few weekends ago in the hottub.. another example of modesty in action.
Oh.. and I love compliments on my singing.. and say thank-you for that.. I'm less confident on matters of skill than I am on physical features if that makes sense.. plus my singing skill varies quite a bit whereas well my tits....always look stupendous don't you agree??
Thursday, August 13, 2009
CIA?
So I was joking around with a friend today on facebook about people knowing in my real life what I do.. and since I've been in the sex biz about 20 years I would have to be in the CIA to keep that a secret from everyone.
This got my warped mind to thinking. CIA.. could stand for Cunt In Appreciation society. Cum Initiation of Asslickers? and ended up with Cum Initiation Application. Of course I'm the applicator.. way too clinical though. Any other smart asses have ideas on this one? You can comment anonymously here.
Another completely different acronym was suggested SFPD - Sexual Fantasy Provided with Donation but that's not really one that rolls of the tongue either. Oh and another one suggested Carrie In Action. I like that!
This got my warped mind to thinking. CIA.. could stand for Cunt In Appreciation society. Cum Initiation of Asslickers? and ended up with Cum Initiation Application. Of course I'm the applicator.. way too clinical though. Any other smart asses have ideas on this one? You can comment anonymously here.
Another completely different acronym was suggested SFPD - Sexual Fantasy Provided with Donation but that's not really one that rolls of the tongue either. Oh and another one suggested Carrie In Action. I like that!
do you watch too much porn?
Sometimes I wonder.. which comes first.. the chicken or the egg on this one.
Porn is 95% (I'm just guessing here) still made by men... and definitely for men. Although the stats say that 25% is bought by women (quoted on Oprah..but I have my doubts). But do they make porn the way they do because men want it that way or do men want it that way because they don't know any other way? I worry that younger kids watch some of the more vulgar stuff (I think throat fucking and ass fucking are way too overblown in porn now) and think that's normal sex.
Obviously.. it's primarily visual and then auditory although the auditory part usually sucks straight from the horrible acting to the cheesy music and fake sounds.. so sometimes turning off the sound works better.
I was commenting to my ex-boyfriend the other day.. who I still fuck. OOps.. he actually hates that term and in truth it's hard for me to call it fucking.. but making love would add too much connotation of a place we can't go back to. It was almost tantric and we were at it for about 2 hrs! Both of us were blown away by how long we kept it up.. because it was frankly just so fucking delicious. Anyway.. my comment was this - I wish we could video this and show kirlian photography/videography of how sensual it is. I've even commented to girlfriends of mine mostly jokingly that I'd love to lend him to them so they could experience this type of sex.
This type of sex is so sensual and so what I really really want.. that most men have no clue how to really do this or please a woman this way. It involves me being on the bottom and him lying pretty much directly on top of me for a good 80% of the time. I love it when a guy I'm really into is just inside me all the time. It's slow fucking.. not banging for most of the time.. and he just knows how to vary the speed and his actions from kissing my mouth to my tits like a cook knows how to add the right spices. Yes he can eat me out very well too.. but frankly I had sex for many years without enjoying that pleasure properly or even knowing how to masturbate and I started having sex in university! I'm a kinesthetic person.. so it's very hard for me to describe what happens.. which is why I wish to be videotaped.. but ya.. that's not gonna happen. He would never go for it. Oh well.. someday perhaps I'll have a person in my life that I have that kind of intimacy with who will allow me to film it.
Describing this kind of feeling.. the euphoria would be like trying to describe how cheesecake tastes.. it's indescribable isn't it?
The problem is without that kirlian photography I doubt the viewers would get that much out of it. If you like the auditory portion.. as many of you already know.. I'm pretty vocal.. so you'd enjoy that. But visually there's no openness to the penetration and I don't blow him. Yeah.. you heard me. I rarely blow him!!! why? because that's the male fantasy. I do enjoy 69 and I do get off giving head if I'm also masturbating and yes I even get enjoyment out of giving head sometimes just for the response I get.. but it's not my fantasy.. I provide your fantasy and if I were a guy that would be my fantasy too!
Oh yeah.. so getting back to porn. As usual I get off on tangents and get back to what my thought was to begin with. Doesn't all porn start with the guy getting blown? and end with him cumming on her face/tits/ass? ...Male fantasy. Guys from a tiny age are fascinated with their dicks (yes I'm jealous!) and once they've learned it can squirt white creamy liquid they want to see it over and over again and leave it everywhere they can get away with :) It's my job to help them do that.
Now of course this may seem confusing to many of my clients that I would post my desires this way.. but this is how I like sex in my personal life. As a business while I enjoy sharing my body with strangers I do not kiss so I'm not a true GFE as they say. It's something I enjoy in relationships as part of lovemaking... but with clients. It's fucking.. porn style.. without the facial ha ha..
Porn is 95% (I'm just guessing here) still made by men... and definitely for men. Although the stats say that 25% is bought by women (quoted on Oprah..but I have my doubts). But do they make porn the way they do because men want it that way or do men want it that way because they don't know any other way? I worry that younger kids watch some of the more vulgar stuff (I think throat fucking and ass fucking are way too overblown in porn now) and think that's normal sex.
Obviously.. it's primarily visual and then auditory although the auditory part usually sucks straight from the horrible acting to the cheesy music and fake sounds.. so sometimes turning off the sound works better.
I was commenting to my ex-boyfriend the other day.. who I still fuck. OOps.. he actually hates that term and in truth it's hard for me to call it fucking.. but making love would add too much connotation of a place we can't go back to. It was almost tantric and we were at it for about 2 hrs! Both of us were blown away by how long we kept it up.. because it was frankly just so fucking delicious. Anyway.. my comment was this - I wish we could video this and show kirlian photography/videography of how sensual it is. I've even commented to girlfriends of mine mostly jokingly that I'd love to lend him to them so they could experience this type of sex.
This type of sex is so sensual and so what I really really want.. that most men have no clue how to really do this or please a woman this way. It involves me being on the bottom and him lying pretty much directly on top of me for a good 80% of the time. I love it when a guy I'm really into is just inside me all the time. It's slow fucking.. not banging for most of the time.. and he just knows how to vary the speed and his actions from kissing my mouth to my tits like a cook knows how to add the right spices. Yes he can eat me out very well too.. but frankly I had sex for many years without enjoying that pleasure properly or even knowing how to masturbate and I started having sex in university! I'm a kinesthetic person.. so it's very hard for me to describe what happens.. which is why I wish to be videotaped.. but ya.. that's not gonna happen. He would never go for it. Oh well.. someday perhaps I'll have a person in my life that I have that kind of intimacy with who will allow me to film it.
Describing this kind of feeling.. the euphoria would be like trying to describe how cheesecake tastes.. it's indescribable isn't it?
The problem is without that kirlian photography I doubt the viewers would get that much out of it. If you like the auditory portion.. as many of you already know.. I'm pretty vocal.. so you'd enjoy that. But visually there's no openness to the penetration and I don't blow him. Yeah.. you heard me. I rarely blow him!!! why? because that's the male fantasy. I do enjoy 69 and I do get off giving head if I'm also masturbating and yes I even get enjoyment out of giving head sometimes just for the response I get.. but it's not my fantasy.. I provide your fantasy and if I were a guy that would be my fantasy too!
Oh yeah.. so getting back to porn. As usual I get off on tangents and get back to what my thought was to begin with. Doesn't all porn start with the guy getting blown? and end with him cumming on her face/tits/ass? ...Male fantasy. Guys from a tiny age are fascinated with their dicks (yes I'm jealous!) and once they've learned it can squirt white creamy liquid they want to see it over and over again and leave it everywhere they can get away with :) It's my job to help them do that.
Now of course this may seem confusing to many of my clients that I would post my desires this way.. but this is how I like sex in my personal life. As a business while I enjoy sharing my body with strangers I do not kiss so I'm not a true GFE as they say. It's something I enjoy in relationships as part of lovemaking... but with clients. It's fucking.. porn style.. without the facial ha ha..
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Highland Games weekend
Last weekend I met up with my friends from high school days and the highland games was the spot in Maxville. One friend is living in Edmonton with her husband and 2 kids. Paul.. my gay friend is living in Switzerland and they both come back to the kingston area where we lived in our teens to visit their folks and then rarely.. every 3-4 years the 3 of us manage to connect! The weather mostly held up for the weekend considering we've had so much rain this fricken summer so we were grateful for that.
Paul and I are more like girlfriends than anything else.. and we had a system for checking out the guys in kilts and alerting the other to their presence.. it's an old but easy one. Just give a time on the clock relative to where you are standing and then a rating of the guy's appearance. ie 12 o'clock and 9 meant straight across from you and a 9 out of 10. It was fun for a bit but honestly there wasn't much eye candy at the games except for the cops! There were several men in uniform and they were hunky. Damn why is it that a man in uniform uh... uniformly brings out the grrr factor in both women and gay men? Does a woman in uniform do that to a man? Doubtful.. for men it's women in short skirts and cleavage enhancing tops.. which of course I had on :)
Which brings me to a fantasy.. believe it or not I have several unfulfilled fantasies. I've never fucked a guy in uniform. 3 years ago when I moved back to Toronto to pursue my porn career and be closer to family.. I was moved by a guy who a full year later let me know by email that he knew at that time who I was. I was surprised to say the least because up to that point I hadn't done much porn.. so he must have known me from my escort site.
This past April when I moved back to Ottawa I contacted him again to have him move me and he agreed but didn't show up himself. He had 2 other guys and during chatting I found out that the guy was a cop and did the moving company part time! I was floored. I sent him an email asking if this was true and he admitted it was.. had thought about booking me several times but figured it was probably not a good idea. I was disapointed to say the least. Hey cops see hookers too! I asked him to send me some pics of him in uniform at least.. which he claimed he didn't have but promised he would.. and I'm still waiting..lol.
SO!!! If any of you are my clients and are reading this and secretly are a cop.. please let me know and bring your uniform to a visit.. or if you have a cop friend who has a uniform that might fit you and would lend you no questions asked.. well it would help fulfil one of my fantasies :)
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
shit happens
Last week I had to de-friend someone who's been hanging around in my life the past couple months. I had issues with this guy being irresponsible with alcohol, shooting off his mouth inappropriately (which of course can be funny but often was off-putting) and with his behaviour with dating girls. It's one thing to watch this and sit back from a distance but I have a big heart and he was rather entertaining to a point... so I had let him crash on my couch several nights instead of having him drive to his cousin's place which was an hour away so he could hang out with some of my friends and myself. We shared alot of similar interests not the least of which was live music (he played guitar as well as sang), karaoke and patios. Long story short.. I felt this guy was using me a bit too much and had to tell him he was no longer welcome to crash on my couch. I was a bit depressed about the whole thing for a day or two but went off to a great party in Oshawa at my friend J's house with L for the weekend. We both needed to get away from 'stuff' and it was a blast. We had margaritas, mohitos and martinis.. just coincidence that they all started with M :)
It started off as a girls afternoon from 2pm-6pm with massages (a massuese was set up in the basement), pedicures and manicures poolside (not my thing). I had a massage and many drinks..and snacks and then after 6 pm people started arriving for the evening euchre tourny. There were several of the same people as last years party and several new ones. The last time I played euchre was the year prior and probably not since high school before that.. so I was rewarded with winning the lowest score at the end of the tourny.. I had a blast anyway as usual... then at 11 pm or thereabouts J asked me if I was ready for skinny dipping.. which I was.. and promptly disrobed in the living room to walk outside stark naked to the pool.. the guys and girls standing outside had their mouths open. UH... hadn't they heard about last years party?? tee hee.. J undressed by the pool.. and we swam and I giggled while she swam towards me and then under my legs as I stood in the shallow end. After 15 minutes or so we headed to the hottub and a few stragglers eventually joined us. It was only a softtub so normally holding 4 people is tight never mind the 8 or 9 we ended up cramming in as the night progressed. One couple started molesting me in the tub at one point.. I was okay with the tits being fondled but beyond that ... nope. I got out rather than disturb the mood they obviously thought was a swingers hottub. I was proud of L who had no previous history of being nude in such an environment.. whereas J ..well we had a history of alot of interesting things each on our own and as a duo. The stories in Tremblant of our adventures are still probably being talked about ;)
Fast forward to today.. I get messages from one of my favorite regulars who I've been seeing for about 6 years that that fucker Earl Jones who turned himself into police wiped him out.. and he can no longer afford to see me. This particular regular is one of the first guys I filmed with for my site.. while he paid me for appts. He's sexy and someone I'd consider dating if he weren't already married.. we have a fantastic chemistry and I really don't like anything fucking up a good thing. I felt horrible for him. I reassured him that we'll work something out and he is coming by for a hug and to see my face tomorrow.. his life turned upside down. He's held me (not very professional I know.. but hey clients do become friends sometimes) when I broke down crying over a breakup 4 years ago.. and I've held him when his mother was in the hospital close to dying..
He's the 4th person close to me in the last 4 years who has been wiped out by some unscrupulous person. 2nd client.
I was already feeling a bit depressed by the letdown of this friendship breakup last week and feeling a bit lonely as my sister has gone awol again off her meds. Probably some letdown from all the fun after bluesfest and then J's party..
when my mom calls to tell me my cousin was killed... stabbed to death. Now I wasn't close to him anymore as he'd gone and moved far away as well as gotten into drugs and been in and out of jail but I had known him well when he was little. He and his younger brother came to live with us for some months when his mom and dad divorced. It was our only broken marriage in our large extended family and we really enjoyed our time having them with us. He was younger than me and hadn't seen my uncle in 10 years so I guess it was like he was already dead in someways.. but a stabbing death really affects me. It's not like another of my cousins who died of cancer 2 years ago or even with an older person. He was 40.. had teenage kids who didn't live with him and I'd seen his younger brother happily at a family reunion last August.
I had a good cry after I got off the phone and will likely attend his memorial when I find out the date.
Tomorrow I have 2 of my good friends from high school who are both visiting their folks near Kingston coming into O-town. If we can coordinate all 3 of us hanging out.. it will be awesome and a sorely needed healing session after the news I got today. Did I mention these fucking allergies are driving me nuts and wiping me out this summer?
Oh. ps. C had married guy and his employee both find out about one another.. married guy is now out of the picture and 2nd guy is staying. I'm happy for her.. although both were hotties.. with 2nd guy it has potential :)
It started off as a girls afternoon from 2pm-6pm with massages (a massuese was set up in the basement), pedicures and manicures poolside (not my thing). I had a massage and many drinks..and snacks and then after 6 pm people started arriving for the evening euchre tourny. There were several of the same people as last years party and several new ones. The last time I played euchre was the year prior and probably not since high school before that.. so I was rewarded with winning the lowest score at the end of the tourny.. I had a blast anyway as usual... then at 11 pm or thereabouts J asked me if I was ready for skinny dipping.. which I was.. and promptly disrobed in the living room to walk outside stark naked to the pool.. the guys and girls standing outside had their mouths open. UH... hadn't they heard about last years party?? tee hee.. J undressed by the pool.. and we swam and I giggled while she swam towards me and then under my legs as I stood in the shallow end. After 15 minutes or so we headed to the hottub and a few stragglers eventually joined us. It was only a softtub so normally holding 4 people is tight never mind the 8 or 9 we ended up cramming in as the night progressed. One couple started molesting me in the tub at one point.. I was okay with the tits being fondled but beyond that ... nope. I got out rather than disturb the mood they obviously thought was a swingers hottub. I was proud of L who had no previous history of being nude in such an environment.. whereas J ..well we had a history of alot of interesting things each on our own and as a duo. The stories in Tremblant of our adventures are still probably being talked about ;)
Fast forward to today.. I get messages from one of my favorite regulars who I've been seeing for about 6 years that that fucker Earl Jones who turned himself into police wiped him out.. and he can no longer afford to see me. This particular regular is one of the first guys I filmed with for my site.. while he paid me for appts. He's sexy and someone I'd consider dating if he weren't already married.. we have a fantastic chemistry and I really don't like anything fucking up a good thing. I felt horrible for him. I reassured him that we'll work something out and he is coming by for a hug and to see my face tomorrow.. his life turned upside down. He's held me (not very professional I know.. but hey clients do become friends sometimes) when I broke down crying over a breakup 4 years ago.. and I've held him when his mother was in the hospital close to dying..
He's the 4th person close to me in the last 4 years who has been wiped out by some unscrupulous person. 2nd client.
I was already feeling a bit depressed by the letdown of this friendship breakup last week and feeling a bit lonely as my sister has gone awol again off her meds. Probably some letdown from all the fun after bluesfest and then J's party..
when my mom calls to tell me my cousin was killed... stabbed to death. Now I wasn't close to him anymore as he'd gone and moved far away as well as gotten into drugs and been in and out of jail but I had known him well when he was little. He and his younger brother came to live with us for some months when his mom and dad divorced. It was our only broken marriage in our large extended family and we really enjoyed our time having them with us. He was younger than me and hadn't seen my uncle in 10 years so I guess it was like he was already dead in someways.. but a stabbing death really affects me. It's not like another of my cousins who died of cancer 2 years ago or even with an older person. He was 40.. had teenage kids who didn't live with him and I'd seen his younger brother happily at a family reunion last August.
I had a good cry after I got off the phone and will likely attend his memorial when I find out the date.
Tomorrow I have 2 of my good friends from high school who are both visiting their folks near Kingston coming into O-town. If we can coordinate all 3 of us hanging out.. it will be awesome and a sorely needed healing session after the news I got today. Did I mention these fucking allergies are driving me nuts and wiping me out this summer?
Oh. ps. C had married guy and his employee both find out about one another.. married guy is now out of the picture and 2nd guy is staying. I'm happy for her.. although both were hotties.. with 2nd guy it has potential :)
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Bluesfest
Sorry I have been remiss in posting. I was reminded today by a lovely new client that I need to keep posting. He was a married guy who remarked that my post on the married clients was one of the reasons.. aside from my curves which he appreciated for the better part of a 90 min appt.. that he got the nerve to book me. He was very nervous at first and one of the great pleasures of my job is initiating the first timer to an SP experience and making it memorable. Sure I enjoyed getting licked to orgasm twice.. sure I enjoyed making him orgasm twice. Getting a thank-you note in the email/text message after they leave (which he did as well) keeps that glow going... but knowing his frustrations of not being taken care of at home were finally abated and likely will be again.. makes my day as well. I don't think most clients realize how satisfying our job can be.. I mean don't you enjoy it when someone enjoys your cooking, your skill in building something.. your gardening.. insert any other minor or major accomplishment you do that makes someone's day/month/life. It's a very rewarding job!!! and the proof is not only in the orgasm you share/watch or create.. it's in the smile left on someone's face and hearing sometimes years after the appt has occured how much it meant to them.
SO.. off to bluesfest for Day 10 I went.. yikes.. what a week so far.
I only skipped a couple days this week and am amazed at my stamina. Having seen more bands in the past 10 days than probably all the concerts I've ever been to in my life.. it's been a blast. The weather has been mostly good.. some amazing sunsets as the 7 pm concerts turn into the headliners at 930... have reacquainted myself with a few people I haven't seen in a while who also enjoy the live venues and solidified my relationship with the girls near me we affectionately refer to as 'the posse' which includes myself C and L and then a few other girls who rotate in and out when they can make it. C and L both took the week off for holidays from their jobs so they could enjoy bluesfest.
They both know what I do for a living and get a kick out of my raw sexual sense of humor when I openly describe my appointments. I tease one of them who has a few guys on her roster when she refers to herself as a whore that she is in fact not a whore and is merely a slut. If she isn't charging for it.. she's not a pro. She's as hilariously dirty minded as myself but both of them blushed when I showed them my spreads in the magazines I've done.
I'm very proud of them and I know they are of me as well.. but it's hilarious to make other people blush and giggle.. and we sure do a lot of giggling. Anyway.. this past week has been a blast and a much need 'staycation' as L calls it. I get to hang at Westboro beach which is mere blocks from my house
and then we go home and shower/change for the concerts and meet up to walk to Lebreton flats along the river parkway for 7ish and back home when the shows are done at 11.
It's quite a reasonable hike but my poor body is used to walking only when shopping in a mall! One would think I might lose a few pounds with all that walking but we drink and then we eat at the end of the night sampling food from the various vendors and many of them are excellent including some organic food.. not that I haven't also had my share of junk food. Poutine anyone??
So tonight when I met the girls I remarked that I had 2 orgasms.. got laid by 2 hot men today and one yesterday and when asked if they were married I thought for a few seconds and realized yup! they all were married. Interestingly enough my friend C is seeing a married guy as one on her roster of afternoon delights..hmmm I wonder if she's realizing she should really be charging him.....
SO.. off to bluesfest for Day 10 I went.. yikes.. what a week so far.
I only skipped a couple days this week and am amazed at my stamina. Having seen more bands in the past 10 days than probably all the concerts I've ever been to in my life.. it's been a blast. The weather has been mostly good.. some amazing sunsets as the 7 pm concerts turn into the headliners at 930... have reacquainted myself with a few people I haven't seen in a while who also enjoy the live venues and solidified my relationship with the girls near me we affectionately refer to as 'the posse' which includes myself C and L and then a few other girls who rotate in and out when they can make it. C and L both took the week off for holidays from their jobs so they could enjoy bluesfest.They both know what I do for a living and get a kick out of my raw sexual sense of humor when I openly describe my appointments. I tease one of them who has a few guys on her roster when she refers to herself as a whore that she is in fact not a whore and is merely a slut. If she isn't charging for it.. she's not a pro. She's as hilariously dirty minded as myself but both of them blushed when I showed them my spreads in the magazines I've done.
I'm very proud of them and I know they are of me as well.. but it's hilarious to make other people blush and giggle.. and we sure do a lot of giggling. Anyway.. this past week has been a blast and a much need 'staycation' as L calls it. I get to hang at Westboro beach which is mere blocks from my house 
and then we go home and shower/change for the concerts and meet up to walk to Lebreton flats along the river parkway for 7ish and back home when the shows are done at 11.
It's quite a reasonable hike but my poor body is used to walking only when shopping in a mall! One would think I might lose a few pounds with all that walking but we drink and then we eat at the end of the night sampling food from the various vendors and many of them are excellent including some organic food.. not that I haven't also had my share of junk food. Poutine anyone??
So tonight when I met the girls I remarked that I had 2 orgasms.. got laid by 2 hot men today and one yesterday and when asked if they were married I thought for a few seconds and realized yup! they all were married. Interestingly enough my friend C is seeing a married guy as one on her roster of afternoon delights..hmmm I wonder if she's realizing she should really be charging him.....
Thursday, June 18, 2009
The truth is stranger than fiction :)
People who are friends of mine often think that most of my clients are ugly, weird or dangerous.. this is normally not true. This past week however I've had a couple of weird clients...
1) a guy books me for a 1/2 hr "get-to-know you" session. Sounds reasonable enough. Many of my clients book only a 1/2 hr. Normally during these sessions I get naked fairly quickly into the appt (well I do that in the longer sessions as well because even chat time can be done naked ha ha..) This particular client wanted to chat first and sat across from me to do so.. launching into an explanation of why he wanted to meet with me. I was perplexed but listened for a good 10-15 minutes while he explained that his sex-life had gone dry with his wife and he had developed a sexual relationship with someone from a social outdoor activity that he shared with her. Then he explained how she had some other guy at her door one day when he arrived to visit her who proceeded to attack him (the other guy was much bigger). He ended up injured.. and here's where the story goes awry.. well more awry.. he took the guy out for a beer.. and had left her place without his blackberry amoung other things. She supposedly went through his phone and emailed this fellows female employee who he had confided in about this woman. She inquired as to his health following the assault. The story goes that she then sent a 2nd email to the guy's employee that was very explicit in nature and pushed the already awkward employer/employee relationship. His employee now doesn't think this woman is real and he wants her to prove that she is.. Not only does she refuse to help him out with this dilemna.. she leaves a nasty voicemail which he accidentally deleted.
Here's supposedly where I come in... he has supposedly accidentaly erased the email but has it written down word-for-word and wants me to reenact it on his voicemail to encourage the employee to believe his story. I instantly refuse... no way.. not for any price will I assist him in the deception. Hell ya this is an unusual request and I'm astounded at this age in my life I still encounter new things..
sooo after spending this inordinate amount of time listening to the story and then counseling him to leave this woman alone as she's obviously bad news and he got off easy considering she's now threatening to tell his wife if he looks for her...
I also advised him to apologize to his employee for involving him in his personal life and to never speak of it again.. but I realized that if she doesn't believe this person existed to begin with she likely has more reason to doubt his sanity than just this scenario and he was probably going to lose her anyway.
Now.. his other reason for visiting me was that he obviously needed to get his sexual needs met by a provider such as myself rather than a girl who might threaten his marriage. He was not in any head space to visit with me that particular day but assured me that after he had surgery on his injured shoulder and had recuperated that he would visit me.. I doubt it.. as his hidden agenda session seemed rather the point.. and illogical from the get-go.
My 2nd weird appt was today.. I saw someone who had had an accident several years ago.. received a brain injury from it and claimed (of course after I got there and did not disclose this prior to engaging my services) that he used cocaine to maintain normalcy. He assured me that he could maintain an erection while on coke as it had the opposite result.. ie calming his hyperactivity rather than making him hyper. The appt went fine for the most part but he was unsuccessful maintaining an erection or getting off.. oh well... nothing I can do about that I've learned. He had some severe issues with muscle rigidity and kept stretching to crack joints. I eventually gave him a chiropractic adjustment.. something I haven't literally done in years and was shocked that I was able to do it! I tried to advise him on minerals he could take and dietary changes which would help him.. but I doubt any of it got through.
I also saw one of my regulars yesterday before meeting friends on a patio.. and he's one I adore spending my time with... so thank god for my ''Normal guys''
BUT if I only saw normal guys.. I wouldn't have anything to write about! and yes.. 90% of my clients are normal everyday joes :)
1) a guy books me for a 1/2 hr "get-to-know you" session. Sounds reasonable enough. Many of my clients book only a 1/2 hr. Normally during these sessions I get naked fairly quickly into the appt (well I do that in the longer sessions as well because even chat time can be done naked ha ha..) This particular client wanted to chat first and sat across from me to do so.. launching into an explanation of why he wanted to meet with me. I was perplexed but listened for a good 10-15 minutes while he explained that his sex-life had gone dry with his wife and he had developed a sexual relationship with someone from a social outdoor activity that he shared with her. Then he explained how she had some other guy at her door one day when he arrived to visit her who proceeded to attack him (the other guy was much bigger). He ended up injured.. and here's where the story goes awry.. well more awry.. he took the guy out for a beer.. and had left her place without his blackberry amoung other things. She supposedly went through his phone and emailed this fellows female employee who he had confided in about this woman. She inquired as to his health following the assault. The story goes that she then sent a 2nd email to the guy's employee that was very explicit in nature and pushed the already awkward employer/employee relationship. His employee now doesn't think this woman is real and he wants her to prove that she is.. Not only does she refuse to help him out with this dilemna.. she leaves a nasty voicemail which he accidentally deleted.
Here's supposedly where I come in... he has supposedly accidentaly erased the email but has it written down word-for-word and wants me to reenact it on his voicemail to encourage the employee to believe his story. I instantly refuse... no way.. not for any price will I assist him in the deception. Hell ya this is an unusual request and I'm astounded at this age in my life I still encounter new things..
sooo after spending this inordinate amount of time listening to the story and then counseling him to leave this woman alone as she's obviously bad news and he got off easy considering she's now threatening to tell his wife if he looks for her...
I also advised him to apologize to his employee for involving him in his personal life and to never speak of it again.. but I realized that if she doesn't believe this person existed to begin with she likely has more reason to doubt his sanity than just this scenario and he was probably going to lose her anyway.
Now.. his other reason for visiting me was that he obviously needed to get his sexual needs met by a provider such as myself rather than a girl who might threaten his marriage. He was not in any head space to visit with me that particular day but assured me that after he had surgery on his injured shoulder and had recuperated that he would visit me.. I doubt it.. as his hidden agenda session seemed rather the point.. and illogical from the get-go.
My 2nd weird appt was today.. I saw someone who had had an accident several years ago.. received a brain injury from it and claimed (of course after I got there and did not disclose this prior to engaging my services) that he used cocaine to maintain normalcy. He assured me that he could maintain an erection while on coke as it had the opposite result.. ie calming his hyperactivity rather than making him hyper. The appt went fine for the most part but he was unsuccessful maintaining an erection or getting off.. oh well... nothing I can do about that I've learned. He had some severe issues with muscle rigidity and kept stretching to crack joints. I eventually gave him a chiropractic adjustment.. something I haven't literally done in years and was shocked that I was able to do it! I tried to advise him on minerals he could take and dietary changes which would help him.. but I doubt any of it got through.
I also saw one of my regulars yesterday before meeting friends on a patio.. and he's one I adore spending my time with... so thank god for my ''Normal guys''
BUT if I only saw normal guys.. I wouldn't have anything to write about! and yes.. 90% of my clients are normal everyday joes :)
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
married clients
It's amazing to me.. but I've had a couple conversations lately.. one male friend and one male client about married clients. They think it's wrong for married men to see escorts.
They are obviously single guys who've never been married. Here's the most common scenario for married clients that see 'service providers'.. a clinical term I've never enjoyed but we are indeed providing a service. It just sounds like I'm an ISP and I am to many people.. I mean if I got paid residuals everytime someone yanked himself to my photos or videos I'd be a millionaire.. so oops back to the topic at hand.
Married guy typical scenario. Guy gets married. They have kids. Wife becomes physically and emotionally disinterested in sex and exhausted..her body changes enormously and she's no longer happy with it and feels undesirable.. thinks sex will happen again when the baby stops breast-feeding and disturbing sleep... then thinks when baby goes to day-care/school.. and when it doesn't happen or happens twice a year.
I say.. what's a guy to do? He may have gotten complacent about his body and gained weight but he hasn't had the changes happen to him that she has and he still wants sex! I mean his sex drive was higher before the kids anyway.. now the height of it is obviously increased.
Here's where (tada!) the provider of sexual services comes in! It is immensely preferable to him having an affair.. which is the other alternative. Some go to massage parlours and will not engage in intercourse.. but let's be real.. masturbation isn't going to cut it.
So the suggestion was by this younger client that married guys who aren't getting laid should leave their wives. Hmm... rather simplistic viewpoint. Leave the wife and kids.. and the wife will be happier??? hell no. Wrath of a woman scorned. She will take him for 1/2 of everything and ask for child support and he ends up living in a friends basement. That's the typical scenario.. and he's punished for wanting sex? His alternative is to live a chaste life and/or use his hand. No fucking way.
They are obviously single guys who've never been married. Here's the most common scenario for married clients that see 'service providers'.. a clinical term I've never enjoyed but we are indeed providing a service. It just sounds like I'm an ISP and I am to many people.. I mean if I got paid residuals everytime someone yanked himself to my photos or videos I'd be a millionaire.. so oops back to the topic at hand.
Married guy typical scenario. Guy gets married. They have kids. Wife becomes physically and emotionally disinterested in sex and exhausted..her body changes enormously and she's no longer happy with it and feels undesirable.. thinks sex will happen again when the baby stops breast-feeding and disturbing sleep... then thinks when baby goes to day-care/school.. and when it doesn't happen or happens twice a year.
I say.. what's a guy to do? He may have gotten complacent about his body and gained weight but he hasn't had the changes happen to him that she has and he still wants sex! I mean his sex drive was higher before the kids anyway.. now the height of it is obviously increased.
Here's where (tada!) the provider of sexual services comes in! It is immensely preferable to him having an affair.. which is the other alternative. Some go to massage parlours and will not engage in intercourse.. but let's be real.. masturbation isn't going to cut it.
So the suggestion was by this younger client that married guys who aren't getting laid should leave their wives. Hmm... rather simplistic viewpoint. Leave the wife and kids.. and the wife will be happier??? hell no. Wrath of a woman scorned. She will take him for 1/2 of everything and ask for child support and he ends up living in a friends basement. That's the typical scenario.. and he's punished for wanting sex? His alternative is to live a chaste life and/or use his hand. No fucking way.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Meeting up with Molly, Maddison and Loraly oh my!
Molly, Maddy and Loraly were seeing clients at a hotel in Ottawa Friday day/night. I met up with them at 10:30 and managed to squeeze in a visit for an hour with Maddy and Loraly while Molly saw her last client of the evening and then the 4 of us giggled and shared stories of our various escorting adventures for another hour or so.. Maddy and Loraly both had to get flights in the morning so they went to bed after we inhaled some chicken wings, fries and red wine. Then Molly who seems to be quite the night owl entertained me some more til almost 3 am! She graciously ignored my many yawns as I'm not the spring chicken I once was and am often in bed by 11 or 12..lol. I meant to snag a photo of the 4 of us but neglected to.. sorry :( but promise the next time I see them I will do so as I'm sure the girls in pink will include me in some 3somes or even 4somes as they are so fond of the next time we meet.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Visit from Mom
My Mom came to visit me in Ottawa in honour of my 45th Birthday. After seeing one of her brothers and his wife in Kingston..she arrived on Tuesday morning. Thankfully we had some sunshine to enjoy and did some gardening as the next 2 days were overcast and rainy. I took her and my sister to Nordik spa for a massage which was lovely.. and then we enjoyed the spa's facilities in the drizzle. I'm a huge hottub fan so I was disappointed that although amazingly beautiful the hottub was merely luke-warm. We spent a bit of time in each of the steam room and sauna. I'm not a fan of either of those for more than 10 minutes if that.. so won't be back to get a massage there. I can do that closer to home. I even emailed them to say the hottub was disappointing and the reply came back that they keep it at 100%. Baloney! We unfortunately weren't allowed to take pics in the spa.. so here's one of the outside the spa :)
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