on politics

please read the previous post on quantum physics before reading this :)

My politics.. it's hard to explain because I always thought I wasn't political. I don't follow local politics. I don't vote. GASP.. Let me tell you why.

I always knew that unless we were voting outside of what to do for the weekend.. or in public school events.. my vote meant nothing. Why do you ask? I knew it was a matter of choosing one liar over another and what's the point of putting my support behind that.

Now you may say.. look at Obama! If it were about 1-2 years ago I would have agreed with you.. Now however.. well I'm getting out of the matrix. The matrix of deception that media leads us into whatever the powers that be want us to know. This includes our ridiculous notion that the medical establishment has our best interests at heart.. that the FDA (or health canada) is there to protect us. It includes our belief that we are genetically predisposed to illnesses.. when in fact we are constantly being poisoned.

Please watch Wendy Mesley's expose on the multi-billion dollar industry on cancer. (if this loads too slow go here) This is a 20 minute show and Wendy when diagnosed with Cancer did a search on why the incidence of cancer is so high in North America. If you haven't watched it you will learn a lot. However it is the tip of the iceberg.

Watch how Monsanto makes sure we don't know how evil an empire it is..

please watch this short intro to a new movie called Believers Beware - the Cause of Effect

What does this have to do with politics?
I'm going to provide a lot of documentaries for you to watch so you can start to lift the veil of why the government and how the government controls what we are told in the media to keep us numbed.. food is the major reason. MSG, aspertame, HFCS (high fructose corn syrup) and refined sugar keep us fatigued, numb our brains and keep us ill with more than just diabetes, MS and ADHD.. they cause a lot more illnesses than the obvious ones.

I was trained as a naturopath that the original meaning of the word doctor was teacher. Teach a person how to take care of their own bodies. Is that how our modern medicine works? nope! we are told not to listen to ourselves.. but rather to let the doctor provide the diagnosis, medicine and surgery for us. Put all our trust in them. We are taught that we are dumb... and we believe the lie.. but think we are smart because we get an education.

People are so impressed to learn that I have a university degree from Queen's and a post-graduate degree in naturopathic medicine. We live in a culture that places waaaay too much emphasis on paper accreditation rather than what a person really knows. I believed the hype too for a while.. but thanks to the internet my education in the truth is growing rapidly.

SO! For politics.. for the REAL news. I subscribe to brasscheck tv Look for Robert Kennedy Jr. View videos on the banking system.

Ron Paul.. the person who if the gov't were actually honest would be president.. who predicted the fall of the banking system years ago! Paulitics.. he's awesome.. Here's his site 1 and 2

If you think your vote actually means shit.. watch CIA agent Chip Tatum (now presumed murdered by the CIA)on google video or on youtube in 8 parts.

If you haven't already watched zeitgeist.. it's a must see. Watch it here on youtube. Here's the federal reserve portion in 5 parts and 911 in 4 parts and religion in 3 parts. Here it is as the whole movie
and zeitgeist part 2 - the addendum

The movie is also available on google video or at their website zeitgeistmovie.com

then! watch hijacking humanity
Freedom to Fascism

view this.. Money as Debt to find out how we are slaves to the banks.

and then go here to freedomclubusa to find out how not to be slaves. and here for some interesting tidbits as well from a Canadian at thinkfree.ca
and the cause of effect.com

believe it or not ... I will have more to add later :)

Quantum physics

So I know I said I would talk about politics after my post on health.. but I decided to talk first about spirituality.. because it relates to politics and health.

First of all.. we are not merely flesh and blood. We are spirit bodies who have chosen to go to 'school' here on earth. Now why in the heck would we do that? Good question and I still don't get it. Apparently.. according to the more spiritually advanced people I read/watch on youtube or tv... we are dumb enough and bold enough to volunteer for such a task. Don't believe me? that's okay.. if you are curious about this stuff here are some people you might want to listen to... Sylvia Brown, John Edwards (not the politician - the medium). You may think it's all bunk.. but really watch them for an hour or so.. what have you got to lose? you might be blown away.

next! Have you watched 'what the bleep do we know'? here are some links whatthebleep trailer
movie in parts on veoh and of course their website whatthebleep

once you watch that.. search for dr emoto's stuff on water. Watch water the great mystery.. to buy go here on bleepstore.com or to view on google videos go here

now don't blame me if none of these links are valid.. do your own research.. but always feel free to email me as well if you have others you feel are entertaining and informative and I'm happy to forward links to you as well if you email me. This is a huge passion of mine and I find it weird that some people pay attention to only what is in front of their noses and never look deeper.

Next. If you watched or read emoto's stuff on hidden messages in water you will know how important words are to water.. and therefore everything in the world! Put up the most powerful words in your house. Gratitude, Love, Thank you. Merci or my favorite in Kanji... in any language! Your body's chi will thank you and things will start coming your way.. which brings me to the secret movie. preview here
Watch this movie and then find books on the law of attraction. It works!

Dr. Emoto's work was profoundly fascinating.. he took water and flash froze it to make in effect a snowflake and showed that water when shown words would react with an image to reflect that word. Here's an image of prayer


and Love and Gratitude

and Truth


Here's a chidren's book pdf version of Hidden Messages in Water. Cute and it's thorough.

picture book

and here's emoto's site hado.net and masaru-emoto

so what? oh there's way more... but that's enough for now! enjoy :)

not the type to pay for it? really???

I'm a member of a few different sites that I mostly don't visit.. such as fetlife, xpeeps, femdomme. I only check on them when I get a post or an email and even then sometimes not..
anyway.. I get fans on myspace or facebook (which I do visit regularly) sometimes ask me if they can meet me.. I then direct them to my escort site. Some are grateful to know it's that simple.. whereas others say I'm not the type to pay for it or not if I have to pay for it. What then? Only if I desire you so much that I want to give you a freebee? or because I'm the hooker with a heart of gold who gives free sessions to students or those on fixed incomes.

You know.. that statement has always bothered me when people say that. What type is that? someone who doesn't buy themselves gifts? Do you treat yourself to a massage? no? how about new clothes/shoes.. a nice dinner? a good haircut?

Seeing an escort is a luxury service you treat yourself to. But if you can't afford it then that's reasonable.. I can't afford a lexus.. so I don't buy one :)

I don't pay for haircuts normally.. I cut my own hair..so what!

am I a type? hmmmmm.

besides..HAVING to pay for an encounter?? It's a privelege not a chore. No more than paying for a therapist appt or anything else. When you put it that way it's like saying you are too good to pay for something. Do you not pay for a good meal in a restaurant that someone has prepared or do you offend them also by saying you're not the type to pay for a meal?

It's really not about offending anyway.. it's about an arrogant misguided attitude that usually is from guys who think they are so charming or gorgeous that they should get any woman they want including you. What a proof of how gorgeous/charming they are that a woman who has chosen to have sex professionally chooses them to give a freebee.. uh. Get over yourself. Arrogance is such a turnoff! Not only does that attitude get a no-go for free.. not even if you paid me :)

pussy chewers rant

this hurts!!!! thankfully it's rare but some guys suck on my inner labia lips like they are trying to get juice out of a piece of fruit. Take a good look at the vulva of a woman. It's extremely tender flesh and obviously doesn't like to be bitten. In my case I may be more sensitive that some other women but in general I don't like anywomen like to be sucked like that. Licked... hell yes! but it feels like I'm being pinched when sucked that hard. I'm not into pain.

"chewing".. is a term my friend who's been long retired from escorting -Shannon coined to me and I howled with laughter when I realized what she meant by the term. Totally describes what they're doing.. also keep in mind that when you're down there if you've forgotten or it's not possible to shave before your appointment.. don't rub your chin in my pussy dammit! that's like sandpaper. Again.. thankfully this is rare.. most guys have enough common sense to know this :)

now.. for pussy pics.. see my other posts. Get a good look and remember to treat with lots of tongue and saliva. Perhaps practice with a mango?*cheesy grin*

health

Most of you know that I got into the adult industry as an escort to put myself thru naturopathic medical school some 20 years ago.. and when we get into discussions on health.. many of my clients go home with prescriptions or books to read or websites to view.. Some even go home with relationship advice.. funny hey? getting relationship advice from a hooker? awww.. don't get offended by the work hooker. It's okay when I use it :)

Anyway.. I thought it was about time since I've exposed myself in virtually every naked pose possible.. that I talk a abit about my other passions. Health.. health care is not really focused on in our culture. We focus on medical care. Medical care is a great industry to get into if you want to make money and enjoy seeing sick people. Health care on the other hand is about education. Please watch this clip. I'm very excited to see this movie soon.

Processed People.

and then this one.

I will have plenty more to add to this particular post as time goes on..
and then another post on my politics will follow.

Oh! and here is my absolute favorite site.. I use it as my homepage. Natural News and I also like and subscribe to Dr. Mercola I highly recommend you subscribe to both as well :)

for those of you interested in possibly changing your diet a wee bit.. wondering if sugar might be a problem? check this out

tummy gone?

After a seminar this past weekend on health and wealth.. I am encouraged to get more serious about my rebounding. and I'm also starting the master cleanse - yikes!
I love lemons anyway.. so it's not that big of a deal. However not eating fun food is a bit difficult for me never mind quitting my morning coffee! I'm starting today with the juice but this afternoon had to have some veggies to quell my headache as I detox. Plus I have a client coming shortly and I don't want to be having my tummy grumble or being thinking about food instead of bedroom antics.

It got me to thinking.. I've been keeping weight on on purpose these last few years because I like to keep my tits at their fullest for my porn and my clients who often gasp at how large they are. If I lose a few pounds that will be great for my trip to Mexico as I'll be living in my bikinis while there. Although I don't mind my tummy too much I do wish it were a bit smaller so I can wear more outfits! But I can't have it both ways.. unless I get lipo which is really not an option since surgery is only an option for me in an emergency. (I would never go under anesthesia for cosmetic reasons). So.. if I lose weight on my tummy.. I will also loose a bit on my tits.. but it will be barely noticable...hopefully! That is if I stick to the diet...time will tell.

Anyway.. enough about me. Look at the links on detox and rebounding. It's a simple way to keep fit and improve your general health/well-being.. brought to you by your friendly neighbourhood MILF/naturopath :)

why pussy tastes good..

At least I think this is why...
I'm just watching an Oprah repeat.. I'd watched before but since they didn't discuss this on the oprah website
It's a very interesting scientific explanation of attraction between men and women.. interesting that they didn't cover homosexual attraction patterns.. hmmm. This is pretty much heterosexually based except for a few things like the symmetry of the face and the genetic superiority.

Anyway.. since they didn't have on the website the part discussed where women who are on the birth control pill and therefore don't ovulate produce less copulins I thought I'd see what else I could find about it! On the show Dr. Laura Berman who I love.. said that strippers who were on the birth control pill made less tips than girls who weren't... and boom. I thought another good reason not to be on it. I can't be on it because it's frankly poisonous to my body so thank god for condoms!

So.. take a look at this website on copulins.

You'll see that "Copulins are an exclusively female group of pheromones. There are secreted into the vagina at the optimum ratios during ovulation with the aim of encouraging men to desire to copulate. This group of pheromones primarily consists of fatty acids that would serve little to no function on there own, but in combination they have been shown to increase testosterone levels in men by 150% (Astrid Jutte study). This increase in testosterone may cause feelings of arousal in men if a woman is present. It is said that once a man smells Copulins on a woman she is deemed to be more attractive."

Which got me to thinking.. most of my clients love going down on me.. they love the smell.. they love the taste and they love the look of my pussy. I don't find it nearly as arousing as they do but I do love playing with it! Now I know why.. it's because they small my copulins and immediately get hard and find me more attractive. I guess I can also be smelled from afar.. or in photos huh? tee hee..

on modesty

recently I've made acquaintance with a musician who when I complimented him was surprised and called it modesty. I was having a conversation about how there's no such thing as an original thought with someone being that we are all connected to a universal source that sends us thoughts and then we of course foolishly think that they are our own. While I don't like arrogance one little bit I think it ridiculous to feel ashamed to say thank-you or you might even take that further and say that to say thank-you for a compliment would be ridiculous as well.. because you can't take credit for your talent or your beauty or even in reality your work ethic because that was all given to you! For instance.. when someone says I have a beautiful smile or great tits.. I often surprise them by saying enthusiastically 'I know!!'
It's not like I can take credit for anything I've received genetically and if I smile it's because I'm predisposed to want people to like me and have learned that if I'm friendly they will be attracted to me... therefore I'm not modest in that regard.
Where I am modest is in regards to clothing... I have only in my last decade or so become more comfortable with showing off in public with regards to my cleavage or wearing tighter skirts and such. If I were on 'what not to wear' or something like that they might say I dress too young for my age but I can get away with it.. or so I think/am told :)
I don't wear the really low-cut tops however that I do at porn show events or for incalls.. and I always dress modestly for outcalls preferring to bring whatever outfit may be requested with me to the clients hotel room/home. That kind of modesty I subscribe to.... a time and a place for everything.
I was at a weekend mini-seminar/birthday gathering/camping event with about 30 people.. we went swimming and I almost went in my birthday suit (naked) but realized with the particular set of people involved that would not be appropriate and in anticpation brought my bikini to wear.. that was not the case obviously at the party J threw a few weekends ago in the hottub.. another example of modesty in action.
Oh.. and I love compliments on my singing.. and say thank-you for that.. I'm less confident on matters of skill than I am on physical features if that makes sense.. plus my singing skill varies quite a bit whereas well my tits....always look stupendous don't you agree??

on... blow jobs

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CIA?

So I was joking around with a friend today on facebook about people knowing in my real life what I do.. and since I've been in the sex biz about 20 years I would have to be in the CIA to keep that a secret from everyone.
This got my warped mind to thinking. CIA.. could stand for Cunt In Appreciation society. Cum Initiation of Asslickers? and ended up with Cum Initiation Application. Of course I'm the applicator.. way too clinical though. Any other smart asses have ideas on this one? You can comment anonymously here.
Another completely different acronym was suggested SFPD - Sexual Fantasy Provided with Donation but that's not really one that rolls of the tongue either. Oh and another one suggested Carrie In Action. I like that!

do you watch too much porn?

Sometimes I wonder.. which comes first.. the chicken or the egg on this one.
Porn is 95% (I'm just guessing here) still made by men... and definitely for men. Although the stats say that 25% is bought by women (quoted on Oprah..but I have my doubts). But do they make porn the way they do because men want it that way or do men want it that way because they don't know any other way? I worry that younger kids watch some of the more vulgar stuff (I think throat fucking and ass fucking are way too overblown in porn now) and think that's normal sex.

Obviously.. it's primarily visual and then auditory although the auditory part usually sucks straight from the horrible acting to the cheesy music and fake sounds.. so sometimes turning off the sound works better.

I was commenting to my ex-boyfriend the other day.. who I still fuck. OOps.. he actually hates that term and in truth it's hard for me to call it fucking.. but making love would add too much connotation of a place we can't go back to. It was almost tantric and we were at it for about 2 hrs! Both of us were blown away by how long we kept it up.. because it was frankly just so fucking delicious. Anyway.. my comment was this - I wish we could video this and show kirlian photography/videography of how sensual it is. I've even commented to girlfriends of mine mostly jokingly that I'd love to lend him to them so they could experience this type of sex.

This type of sex is so sensual and so what I really really want.. that most men have no clue how to really do this or please a woman this way. It involves me being on the bottom and him lying pretty much directly on top of me for a good 80% of the time. I love it when a guy I'm really into is just inside me all the time. It's slow fucking.. not banging for most of the time.. and he just knows how to vary the speed and his actions from kissing my mouth to my tits like a cook knows how to add the right spices. Yes he can eat me out very well too.. but frankly I had sex for many years without enjoying that pleasure properly or even knowing how to masturbate and I started having sex in university! I'm a kinesthetic person.. so it's very hard for me to describe what happens.. which is why I wish to be videotaped.. but ya.. that's not gonna happen. He would never go for it. Oh well.. someday perhaps I'll have a person in my life that I have that kind of intimacy with who will allow me to film it.

Describing this kind of feeling.. the euphoria would be like trying to describe how cheesecake tastes.. it's indescribable isn't it?

The problem is without that kirlian photography I doubt the viewers would get that much out of it. If you like the auditory portion.. as many of you already know.. I'm pretty vocal.. so you'd enjoy that. But visually there's no openness to the penetration and I don't blow him. Yeah.. you heard me. I rarely blow him!!! why? because that's the male fantasy. I do enjoy 69 and I do get off giving head if I'm also masturbating and yes I even get enjoyment out of giving head sometimes just for the response I get.. but it's not my fantasy.. I provide your fantasy and if I were a guy that would be my fantasy too!

Oh yeah.. so getting back to porn. As usual I get off on tangents and get back to what my thought was to begin with. Doesn't all porn start with the guy getting blown? and end with him cumming on her face/tits/ass? ...Male fantasy. Guys from a tiny age are fascinated with their dicks (yes I'm jealous!) and once they've learned it can squirt white creamy liquid they want to see it over and over again and leave it everywhere they can get away with :) It's my job to help them do that.

Now of course this may seem confusing to many of my clients that I would post my desires this way.. but this is how I like sex in my personal life. As a business while I enjoy sharing my body with strangers I do not kiss so I'm not a true GFE as they say. It's something I enjoy in relationships as part of lovemaking... but with clients. It's fucking.. porn style.. without the facial ha ha..

Highland Games weekend

Last weekend I met up with my friends from high school days and the highland games was the spot in Maxville. One friend is living in Edmonton with her husband and 2 kids. Paul.. my gay friend is living in Switzerland and they both come back to the kingston area where we lived in our teens to visit their folks and then rarely.. every 3-4 years the 3 of us manage to connect! The weather mostly held up for the weekend considering we've had so much rain this fricken summer so we were grateful for that.
Paul and I are more like girlfriends than anything else.. and we had a system for checking out the guys in kilts and alerting the other to their presence.. it's an old but easy one. Just give a time on the clock relative to where you are standing and then a rating of the guy's appearance. ie 12 o'clock and 9 meant straight across from you and a 9 out of 10. It was fun for a bit but honestly there wasn't much eye candy at the games except for the cops! There were several men in uniform and they were hunky. Damn why is it that a man in uniform uh... uniformly brings out the grrr factor in both women and gay men? Does a woman in uniform do that to a man? Doubtful.. for men it's women in short skirts and cleavage enhancing tops.. which of course I had on :)
Which brings me to a fantasy.. believe it or not I have several unfulfilled fantasies. I've never fucked a guy in uniform. 3 years ago when I moved back to Toronto to pursue my porn career and be closer to family.. I was moved by a guy who a full year later let me know by email that he knew at that time who I was. I was surprised to say the least because up to that point I hadn't done much porn.. so he must have known me from my escort site.
This past April when I moved back to Ottawa I contacted him again to have him move me and he agreed but didn't show up himself. He had 2 other guys and during chatting I found out that the guy was a cop and did the moving company part time! I was floored. I sent him an email asking if this was true and he admitted it was.. had thought about booking me several times but figured it was probably not a good idea. I was disapointed to say the least. Hey cops see hookers too! I asked him to send me some pics of him in uniform at least.. which he claimed he didn't have but promised he would.. and I'm still waiting..lol.
SO!!! If any of you are my clients and are reading this and secretly are a cop.. please let me know and bring your uniform to a visit.. or if you have a cop friend who has a uniform that might fit you and would lend you no questions asked.. well it would help fulfil one of my fantasies :)