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Idiot rant

So.. this is not a first..my encountering an idiot client I mean.. but one thing was which I'll get to in a moment. I can handle sooooo many types of personalities. The older I get the rarer it is for me to find someone who rubs me so much the wrong way that I flip. Today was the day.. Was I sensitive? well yes.. that's why I wrote about sledge first... you now get an inside view to my sensitivity today. BUT was I oversensitive? Not if you know me. One thing that will have me kicking your ass out of my house faster than your feet can carry you.. is blatant disrespect. A few months ago I kicked a little shit out of my house.. He showed up with 40bucks.. but waited to tell me til we were sitting in my bedroom and had a good look down at my tits.. and asked if they were real. I told him yes.. but I knew something was up right away when he started this line of encounter and he hadn't even paid yet! So when I told him he needed to take care of business first.. he got all squirmy. Long story short I ripped into him about disrespect and walked him out of my house. Today was a similar start. Young guy shows up.. acting a bit squirrelly.. so I figure it's 'first time gitters'.. nothing to worry about. BUT he only has 140. Not a good start. I say you know my rate.. why would you bring less? He offers to go to the bank near me to get 20 bucks more. Idiot.. that's not the fucking point (I think to myself.. I don't say it). It's disrespectful. I don't get why guys think they'll get a good encounter out of anyone by shorting them at the beginning of the appt. btw.. yesterday a sweet client came for a 2nd appt and handed me an extra $20. That's a sign of extreme gratitude and respect. Some guys don't get this.. you want good service at your favorite restaurant? you tip the server.. you don't short them! That's why you get the label idiot! So.. anyway.. that's something I can tolerate but it certainly doesn't put me in a generous giving mood. I tell him he can bring extra the next time he books me.. but in reality I would likely never let him book again.. we'll see how the session goes.. Well it goes from bad to worse. While we're fooling around.. He asks if I like hard sex... I answer no.. not really.. I like it to start off slow and then sometimes get hard. He's grinding on my but not very erect.. grabs me intensely in different areas instead of gently. I'm thinking I'm gonna have to tell him to back off.. but so far it's not so bad. He's got my hair.. is it okay to pull it during sex? yes.. I say it is.. if you know what you're doing.. I offer to blow him.. get out the condom. He's not very big so I can easily deep throat him which he likes of course. He asks me if I squirt.. I don't. Do I wanna cum today. I explain it may or may not happen. It's not that simple. He says how lucky I am to have a job where I get to cum and get paid. (I'm thinking wow.. yeah.. I'm lucky today...not!) We try to fuck but he's losing his hard-on..he tries to fuck me with a semi-erection.. I usually let this go to see if the guy will get harder.. but he's telling me he likes it rough.. I say.. yeah I got that! so I slap his ass a bit.. not too hard. But then he slaps my tits a few times..hard though.. wtf? I'm thinking? and before I can even say anything HE then slaps my Face!!!! HOLY wtf??? It wasn't hard.. but it was the principle of the thing. I got mad..he says well you slapped my ass so I slapped your face! WTF? I say to him it's not the same thing! But the banter went from bad to worse when he said sorry alternating with 'it's just a joke'.. alternating with 'take it easy' in a condescending way. Oh no you didn't you little prick! Shit just hit the fan!!! You know the saying.. hell hath no fury like a woman scorned? Well hell broke lose. I was so infuriated that he had the balls to contradict me in this situation.. while he's fucking me no less.. that I pushed him off and told him to get the fuck out my house. At first I contemplated giving him some of his money back and then I thought fuck him! if you're stupid enough to be this disrespectful you need to learn a fucking lesson. This idiot was still talking with the same line of alternating false apology mixed with I needed to chill.. that it got me even angrier.. I kept telling him to stop talking as it was only making me shake more with how mad I was.. I'm sure I was visibly shaking as I said to him.. I've never been slapped in my life by a client! and I hadn't!!! in over 23 years.. And I wasn't for a second in fear mind you.. I was enraged and indignant at the sheer disrespect he gave me. Clients for the most part are the most respectful thoughtful people on the planet.. which is why I love my job. They always ask if this or that is okay. Some are so submissive by nature that they ask if they can do every little thing before they do it. Even staring at my tits sometimes when they ask if it's okay to touch them.. I laugh with delight that they are so enamoured by them and can't believe they finally get to touch them. This young lad.. who knows where he got the idea that it was okay to do this.. he didn't explain himself.. and by now I wanted nothing to do with him. He had his chance to explain with a proper apology instead of the bullshit responses he gave. I told him maybe he would learn how to behave with the next girl he booked but he sure as hell wouldn't get another chance with me!

yin and yang

Well.. I wrote Sat about my wonderful time Friday night..I was excited and distracted and spent all day yesterday recuperating because Sunday I was rearranging so many things to get a room ready for Isabelle to work in more regularly. So! now here's the downer... In every happy hookers life some rain must fall... A friend of mine was killed last week.. Sledgehammer aka Marland Anderson. I waited a week to write about it because this really hurt. It hurt because he was one of the sweetest, kindest, gentlest giants I'd ever met.. and I find a lot of big guys who at first glance might seem intimidating are actually just giant teddy bears. I knew he struggled with depression.. He was actually very shy. When I rented a room from him my last month in LA we spent time together at the beach and out clubbing. He was encouraged by me to get out more and socialize... after all.. I do like to socialize. BUT I was concerned about how much dope he was smoking... self medicating it seemed to me. That was April of 2008... I met him in LA when I did my first LA based porn. I knew from the girl I was staying with (I was living with Porno Dan and his wife Kira Silver for my first few weeks there) that he would be gentle with me. I mean he had a super giant cock to go along with his big giant body! Kira was much tinier than I am so I figured if she can take it.. I could too. So that happened last week.. I have had more than my share of people in my life who suffer from mental illness. One who walked off a cliff when I was young while being a resident at a psychiatric facility.. a sibling who has been in and out of psych wards, jail and what not.. a grandparent who long suffered from schizophrenia.. and now recently another colleague is spinning out of control and I'm not close enough to intervene but also can't. I'm a recovering codependent. I can only direct others closer to her how to deal with her. It's tricky.. because in order to get a person to the psych ward you either need their consent which is almost impossible to get because they are not in their right mind.. either they are paranoid that people are trying to poison them (in the case of Sledge and my grandfather/cliff-walker) or they are enjoying the 'high' too much... whether it be from the drugs/alcohol or the manic phase which makes them feel invincible. They don't want help because they don't want that feeling to stop. So you have to wait til they prove to be a harm to themselves or someone else. In Marland's case.. he had done that.. A knife was involved and a suicide attempt. The first bit of news made the cops look like they were responsible.. over-tasing him to death.. But then the news was altered. They only tased him twice.. he had broken the handcuffs/railing in the ambulance. REALLY? sorry but something doesn't add up here. If the ambulance is that fragile.. why was he handcuffed there and not more appropriately in a squad car with the ambulance following? anyway.. I'm sure more details will come out but there definitely needs to be more education about psychosis.. not only with the cops/health care but with our own society. Yes.. it's scary.. we're afraid it's contagious. And in a way it is.. because dealing with a mentally ill psychotic person can stress you out so much that you too can become unhinged. There's also the manipulation. A good Manic episode will have you convinced after you've been manipulated enough that you are the crazy one. I have on more than once occasion had to pull the wool out of the health care professionals eyes where my sibling was concerned and do their job for them. You learn alot over the years on this side of the fence. Anyway.. It sucks.. but it's something I'm sure many of you have either personally experienced yourself or with friends/family members or know ones who have. It's not an easy thing to deal with. Next...stay tuned for an idiot rant. Then I promise we're back onto to hot sex topics :)