Wednesday, December 29, 2010

How I got into the porn industry

I started watching documentaries on couples who had websites that they made money from. One of the documentaries was called 'private parties' on the documentary channel. One couple in particular (don't remember what show it was on) was Dawn's place. They were Canadian and were making at the time of the episode 50 grand/month. I was shocked. WTF?? If they could do it.. I could do it. One problem. I didn't have a husband who wanted to be in porn.. never mind a boyfriend who did. Every guy I was involved with during this venture wasn't on the same page as me. They obviously didn't mind my escorting but being directly involved in the sex industry... nope!

I contacted Dawn as well as another girl who never responded and Dawn agreed to host my website and gave me very minimal guidance. She started out with layouts for Score magazine and got her notoriety that way. I wasn't ready yet to be so exposed.

I had taken my website advertising down and a bit of a hiatus from escorting and only had had pics up of me minus my head.. like a lot of girls do. So many guys would email me to say they missed my pics and I realized they didn't really care about my head! Could I make a members site without showing my face? I gave it a shot.

I videoed with costumes and masks or filmed with clients from the neck down. The vids are pretty crappy now.. and back then I had a hi-8 camcorder. Digital wasn't readily available yet.

After a year or so of wearing wigs and doing webcam shows on camz I got fed up and decided to go the whole way. I told Dawn and she put me in touch with her photographer in the states who had done her magazine layouts.

I went to the US to shoot for Girls over 40, Juggs, 40 plus and over 40. This is when I first got into trouble at the border (April 2007). I was turned away when they realized I was going to be 'working without a permit' but after 3 hrs of awful interrogation I went home.. called my friend Angela and we rented a car to go across the border the next day. (I didn't want my license plate to register another attempt at a crossing). We got over the border successfully and headed to Albany. We saw some clients in the hotel I rented and each day I went to poukeepsie to the studio to do the layouts. Each layout took 3-4 hrs to shoot and an hour for makeup. The outfits I wore were pre-approved before I went down.

The following January the first one came out and I was so excited to be cover and centerfold. I wasn't ever able to shoot for Score group unfortunately because since Dawn's time shooting there Canadians are no longer allowed to shoot there (florida) on american soil. The only way for them to shoot me is to come up here (yeah... not financially feasible for them) or in the bahamas. (that I would love) Hey.. maybe you could all contact Score and bug them to shoot me!

It's fucking stupid how we Canadians and Amercians can't travel freely back and forth from one country to the other. We're practically the same people!

So.. by now the magazines of course aren't as popular as they used to be because in the meantime while I was debating getting fully into the industry the internet had well taken over and online pics/vids were so much easier to jerk-off to than mags :)

I didn't get as well known because of this when the mags came out as Dawn had.. but it was hilarious to me that my Girls over 40 magazine with me on the cover was at almost all the 7-11's so I warned my brother not to look during that time or he'd see me!

After that I made more attempts to do porn and make connections in the industry. I met with a company in Ottawa several times (5DTV) but ended up only shooting some joke lady stuff telling dirty jokes in lingerie for other people's porn. They told me they'd build a bunch of movies and a website around me but we eventually only shot one masturbation scene.

I had some personal issues that made me feel like perhaps moving back to Toronto was a good choice and that perhaps I would have better luck there shooting porn.

I moved there in the fall of 2007 and in January headed to Vegas for AVN for my first time. LA direct had corresponded with me via email but then didn't follow up
with me to meet at AVN. Then I ran into the couple from Ottawa who run the 5DTV network I had been joke lady for. Even though I hadn't yet shot any movie for them... I stood for some time at their booth and signed autographs. I wasn't really known yet though of course.. so it was kind of funny but people still came to get an autographed photo. But I did meet some cool people in the industry and was introduced to some video companies from LA all of whom said to let them know when I was in LA.

The people I did meet - Tony Batman who's still a good friend and Terry from Floating world who graciously introduced me to so many other people in the industry showed me a good time and introduced me to the Venetian circle bar hang out where all the porn actors and fans mingled evenings during the convention.

I went to a couple really fun parties but nothing really concrete developed for me. Once back in Toronto I finally got to hook up with a company that did a shoot with me for Cable in Toronto. Naughty Canadians (I) which ended up being my very first real porn movie. The original movie I shot with Mary Taylor (previously a strip for your partner instructor at the Canadian sex shows) ended up on the cutting room floor. This was my first experience learning how not to shoot porn :) It was shot with no backup talent and 1/2 had never shot any porn before.. so either couldn't perform or didn't show up. Mary had promised to shoot a whole Milf series around me but I only ever got that one movie done and she did the 2nd one in the series and as far as I know gave up after that. Not realizing she's bitten off more than she could chew I guess.

People often suggest to me that I produce my own porn and I've tried.. believe me! it's not as easy as it looks.. mostly because of the male talent which I'll get to now. During all this time while I was trying very unsuccessfully to get movies made in Canada.. I tried to have male talent shoot with me for my website. It seemed that most of the guys I had any chemistry with and also had ability were only willing to shoot with a mask on. The guys willing to do anything with me weren't for me personality or skill wise. Girl/girl was okay but really doesn't sell as well as hardcore. It wasn't til I got back from LA I found that fetish porn is the money maker. More on that later (jerkygirls).

Film #2. The fellow I had shot Naughty Canadians with I requested. I had seen him do his scene with my friend Monika Maple in the first movie that never got finished and wanted him! James Gray. Wonderfully goodlooking, built and sweet as they come. Nice smile, great body and awesome fuck.

5DTV in Ottawa finally got their act together and shot Dazed and Cumfuzed with myself, James and the now retired Amber Moon. I got to play the owner of a student boarding house and had a bunch of fun making that movie. My 2nd in Toronto and my only other proper Canadian porn film.

I met a webdesigner near Toronto online through the adultwebmasters conference and we went to work on a proper site for me. She put me in touch with a girl in Arizona who had an adult website for foot fetish and a blowjob site with her husband and we had so much in common that I planned a trip down there to visit her and plan my next step in porn. She was going to help promote me at Adultcon, AVN etc and we brainstormed. She had 4 yorkies (which is why I have 2 now) that I fell in love with and I spent about 6 or 8 weeks there with her that fall. Travelled to Florida to work with Girlzinc (much earlier blogs you can read about) and then back to New York for more magazine shoots.

Came back home and went once more to AVN in Jan 2008. This time I was way more comfortable in that environment as I'd made friends the year before and more online on myspace, adultspace and

I arranged some content exchange shoots this time as well and shot 4 scenes.. 2 of which I never received from the other parties. Note to self: don't shoot content anymore unless you have your own camera man!

One of the couples I shot with (Porno Dan and his then wife Kira Silver) invited me to come to LA. I jumped at the chance and in February flew down just before Valentine's day. Kira and Dan were in the midst of separating and she was lonely amoungst other issues so it was pretty uncomfortable staying there. Long story but I lasted 2 weeks before telling her I had to find another place to live and rented a room from a fellow I met at my agent's office who did softcore porn.

Burbank was a delight! Dan took me the first day I was there to an internet cafe and I swear practically everyone on the walk to there said hi to me! I loved that cafe and ended up there virtually every day. It was right around the corner from PSK (pornstarkaraoke) so I could have lived there forever easily.

Kira set me up on my shoot with Sledgehammer and then introduced me to an agent who ended up being a complete idiot. Thankfully Jim South of world modelling re-entered the industry. I went for an interview and loved him immediately. He was a no bullshit charming man who had been in the industry for many years and made me laugh with his southern accent and jokes.

He set me up with all the shoots for naughty america and the other MILF movies I did while in LA. Meanwhile I spent every Tuesday night at PSK hanging out with my friends in the industry and singing my lungs out. I spent the other days lounging by the pool at the place I was at for a month in Encino and at the beach and shopping in LA.. hard life.

For my last month in LA I rented a room with Sledgehammer in Chatsworth and we went out to a few clubs/porn parties. Porn doesn't pay as much as most people think and Sledge also had a job doing construction so I didn't see him alot.

I averaged only one shoot/week so my money was running out. I wasn't yet known so wasn't in that high of a demand. As well not as many companies shoot MILF porn as do the 18 yr old girls.. for the simple reason that there's a new crop of 18 yr old girls entering porn every week whereas MILF don't enter porn nearly as often so it's hard for agencies and companies to focus on them.

If I were able to legally get back to LA though I would in a heartbeat. I'm obviously known now as my porn has made it around the world on the internet and I've made a bunch of good friends there as well as having gotten to know the area very well. I rented a car while there and bought a GPS or I would never have been able to tour it all so successfully hitting one mall after another :)

I returned May 1st to Toronto to my apt in Etobicoke and waited for the movies to come out. My friends hot mom was out already in April before I left LA and I was a hit. The guy I shot with was lame as they get. He barely spoke to me and seemed off in another world (probably on drugs in my opinion or at least hung over from using them the night before) and I had really hoped to be shooting with Christian who I had a major crush on. Anyone who knows me knows what a people person I am so it was a strain to shoot with that guy. Good acting on my part eh? lol

So my name was getting around and I was contacted by jerkygirls to see if I'd shoot for them. They were the number 1 site on clips4sale and low and behold they shot in Kingston! A little over 2 hrs from Toronto and my old home town! I lived there for several years during university and a couple prior.

I missed Ottawa and toured back there to see some friends and my clients on occasion. I would shoot for 2 hrs with jerkygirls on the way there or on the way back and shoot 5 or 6 clips during that time. They were a major pleasure to shoot for. Unlike some of the other shoots I'd done they were super well organized, had clearly thought out scripts and costume ideas and were very respectful. I was literally in and out of there in 2 hrs time.

I shot for them about 6 or 7 times I'd guess and then they closed up shop about 2 years ago in Kingston.. leaving only there Florida studio open. About 6 months ago they opened up again in Kingston but because the porn industry has taken such a hit from all the free downloading they want 4 hrs work for the same rate. I can't justify it as I'm still making a very comfortable living escorting and I also don't travel back and forth from Toronto anymore. I moved back to Ottawa 1 1/2 years ago and frankly hate the drive. Plus the 2nd 2 hrs of shooting is solo work and I'm not into it. No cock.. no fun :)

So that's the short version! I've been in the industry really only 2 years but dabbled for about 2 before that.

How I got into the escort industry

I often get asked this by clients and through email correspondence.. so thought I'd update you all here.

I was 24 years old but I don't remember exactly what month or year.. except that I was putting myself through post-graduate school in Toronto. I was working initially 3-4 shifts on weekends as a security guard but when trouble at home caused me to move out from my parents I began working full-time nights and attending a heavy courseload during the day..

I had an already weakened immune system and this of course eventually pushed me over the edge. Something had to give. A girlfriend of mine answered an ad in Now magazine for an escort agency and went for an interview.. Knowing very little about what was required and assuming an escort had to be a model look alike I had no clue what assets I owned. I was about 160 lbs (I'm bet 180-190 now) and a full DD cup. I was very very nervous and interviewed in mid afternoon prior to heading to my 4-12 shift as a security guard. This was for Aphrodite escorts and was an outcall agency only.

She told me to call when I was done my shift.. and not realizing I had already been hired (I expected to have to go in for a 2nd interview.. much like a normal job) when I called she told me to put on a dress and get ready for a car to pick me up. I really didn't have time to think about it which was probably a good thing or I may have chickened out! Back then I wore a basic beige bra and granny and probably only owned one dress.

I can only recall 2 of the 3 appts when I look back as both were strange and never to be repeated again. The first one I was dropped off.. called the agency as was explained to me after getting the money and proceeded to get acquainted with the guy on the couch. He explained to me that he was visiting a friend or friends and that we would be staying on the couch. I was nervous that someone would walk in on us! An hour went by rather quickly and at 5 minutes to the hour I got the phone call that the driver was there and to get ready for him. (this was their procedure in every case and we were to say something other than 'yes we had the correct fee') to let them know if the driver needed to come back up... but I never ever had any trouble.

It was the policy for the clients to discuss only money with the agency/phone girl and never with the escort. If he wanted to talk to the escort first about dos/don'ts on the phone that was fine but if he discussed fee we were always to redirect him to discuss that with the agency. This was to avoid legal issues.. but years later they got busted not because of the business but because they had soooo many girls in cars coming and going from the agency which was run in a rather affluent neighbourhood. Dumbasses!

The reason I left? This particular lady (and I use the term very loosely) who owned the agency was a hardened individual who sent me on appts with guys that she knew would cause me grief without warning me. I therefore felt no guilt when I left her service and kept the phone #'s of 2 of my best regular clients.

One of the reasons I don't like agencies is because most of their business starts late at night.. often after midnight and because it was strictly outcall some of the guys would be drunk or even stoned/doing drugs during the appt.

I prefer now how I do incalls during daytime/evening hours. Many of my clients are visiting me on the way to work or between appts if they work out of the office.

Anyway.. so I left my first appt very excited because I'd just made 120 bucks. The agency charged 200 for the hour plus 40 transportation. I got 120 out of 200. I met a couple of other girls in the car and one of them and myself were then heading to the Royal York hotel together.

She was gorgeous.. a brunette stripper from Montreal. Her sister also worked for the agency and was a blond. I have no recollection of either of their names now but I do recall how dumb this girl was. She used the word chaos in a sentence but pronounced it Chows. Trying to be cautious I asked her what her first language was.. because I figured if it was french I would correct her and she would appreciate it. Nope! It was english.. so I kept my mouth shut.

So! she was the more experienced of the 2 of us obviously as I had pretty much just lost my escorting virinity. Without bothering to fill me in on our circumstances she takes me up to the room and I was shocked. There were about a dozen guys in a circle in chairs.. and I was shown one to sit in. I was like a deer caught in headlights nervous as a small kitten. While she got the financial arrangements taken care of I watched as an obvious streetwalker sauntered around the room offering $50 blowjobs to any takers. A very drunk lecherous man started lunging toward me and practically drooling on me when another man rescued me and showed me to another room. The brunette went with the guy who was quite attractive and I was given to a 65 year old geezer.

My geezer turned out to be a sweetheart! He had been made a widower and had never been with anyone other than his wife. He was very gentle.. took about 5 minutes total and we chatted a bit. I'm sure he could tell how nervous I was... and he tipped me 50 bucks!

I don't remember anything else about that night. I know I had a 3rd appt somewhere in there but I guess because both of those appts had me so un-nerved I remembered them so well.

Knowing me know as well as some of you do know through my porn or even in person you wouldn't suspect me of being shy and self-conscious.. but sexually I was very shy!

I was mostly a tom-boy growing up with an occasional penchant for girly things and being 'buddies' with most of my male friends had no clue they even had crushes on me never mind wanted to bed me. I was a virgin til I was 21 and for 2 years after heading to Europe I was a born-again Christian.. which meant I was celebate during that time. This is not to say I hadn't had my share of one-night stands and even some relationships but I wasn't the most experienced. I didn't even know how to give myself an orgasm til about 23.

So I went straight from being a christian to being a hooker! I am now what I call a 'heathen'. I don't consider myself an atheist.. but I don't still consider myself a Christian either. I am spiritual and well my beliefs are another blog all together and off topic but I decided when I began escorting that sex wasn't a 'sin' and to let that religious guilt my mother would have me endure not be a part of my life.

My parents now know what I do.. but for the first while I had them convinced that the reason I had a pager was that I was 'on call' for my security job and was now promoted to a supervisory role so I had to go to work on a moment's notice sometimes. It worked out well until my sister during a pretty volatile argument blurted out my real job to my mother! I was livid and didn't speak to her for months afterward. I begged my mother not to tell my father and she kept it from him for about 2 more years until I bought a house with my earnings and figured it was about time we fill him in on my real job.

He was fine with it! I couldn't believe it! I fully expected my father to dis-own me but he had no issue with it. Considering his religious authority (he was a minister for some years) thankfully he actually now talks my mom down from the emotional 'ledge' she sometimes gets herself on regarding my job. He loved it when I was in sales as he wanted me to follow in his footsteps but I was never really happy at it. I consider myself somewhat of a salesperson now though.. and can properly back up my product rather than try to pass someone else's product on to an unsuspecting patron.

I always enjoyed customer service when I could fulfill someone's order and in that way my job now gives me immense satisfaction. The part of the customer service job I didn't like of course was dealing with unsatisfied clients who were angry because their ordered wasn't delivered or it was the wrong order. They didn't care at all that I wasn't the actual person responsible for it.

In the escort world this happens when you work for an agency who practices bait and switch. I would sometimes get sent out on a call and told to pretend I was 2 inches shorter or a few years younger/older. What a crock!

As my own boss I don't have to put up with that bullshit and what you see is what you get!

There are soooo many perks to this job. I get to work from home. I get to make people VERY happy. I get laid.. and the pay is great!

My first night working for the escort service I saw 3 clients and made 500 bucks. I called my security job the very next day and quit! no notice.. Never wore that navy blue polyester uniform again. I am sorry that I never got a photo of myself in it though.. really sexy (not!)

Oh.. and that's when I became a blond too! the blond sister of the girls from Montreal left the service shortly after I started so Alexis (the owner) asked me to go blond.. which I did. I was under the illusion that blonds were more popular and since I had gone back to being a brunette 10 years ago when I re-entered the escort industry here in Ottawa I contemplated having to go back to being a blond. Guess what? Many guys actually preferred me brunette!

Once in a while I dream I'm a blond again..and it did suit me but man it's a lot of upkeep.. I had to do my roots every couple weeks. Not that big of a deal really and I could do it again.. but it's sooooo much easier to stay my natural color :)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Thursday, December 9, 2010

tanning pics Dec 7

accidentally had it on video first

Sunday, December 5, 2010