Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Halloween Oct 31, 2009

I just realized I never posted pics from my halloween adventures! Here there are..



Everything to do with sex show in Toronto Nov 21st, 2009

So this year I attended the sex show as a patron instead of having a booth. It was waaaay more fun. Attending the show can be a bit boring.. it's not the most exciting show unless you get very excited by skinny naked girls in body paint and some very voluptuous (fat cows) in way too tight spandex. BUT for me it was a blast. I get to dress up in very provocative clothing and show off my tits in public. I normally dress very modestly in comparison when wandering the malls.. excepting of course for my recent outing in my wonder woman costume. Yes.. it's always obvious I have big tits.. but it's extremely obvious in such outfits. I was only there for about 4 hours and in that time I got to catch up with friends in the industry I haven't seen since I moved but my biggest surprise was running into my friend Brandon Iron who had just flown in from Calgary where he had been seeing family via L.A. where he calls home to see his lawyer in Toronto.

He's off after that to Budapest to shoot his blowjob scenes he has made famous on his site Brandoniron.com. I have known Brandon for about 2 years or more and he's the most humble, sweet guy in the industry. I have a huge soft spot for him and due to travelling schedules we are rarely in the same city at the same time.. so it was a major pleasant surprise. Being much shorter than myself the first time we took a photo I powerlifted him.. this time I scrunched down and giggled when I did so. I only had about 2 inch heels on in my boots but I still towered over most of my friends except for the girls who had on 10 inch or higher platforms but even then that only made them my same height.

The only shows on the main stage I watched for a few minutes was the circus act of a woman using long scarves hanging from the ceiling and performing acrobatics very gracefully and a bit of one with male strippers. Frankly I have seen most of that with better seating in other venues.. I don't enjoy standing to watch shows. The seminar room whenever I walked by was packed to the hilt I presume because of the amount of seating as well as the topics. See them here if you're interested.

Carrie Moon with Leanne Fluxxx of deadlightdolls


Carrie Moon with Leanne Fluxxx of deadlightdolls


Carrie Moon getting her boobs squeezed by a friend


Carrie Moon with Scott Rhodes and Maxine X


Carrie Moon and Maxine X


Brandon Iron and Carrie Moon


Orabella with Brandon Iron and Carrie Moon


Carrie Moon with Uncle D - Canadian Assman


Carrie Moon with Orabella Dominatrix


Carrie Moon with Nat X Dominatrix


Carrie Moon with Madison Doll from deadlightdolls

Monday, November 9, 2009

I don't fake it.. well mostly...

I was surprised to learn the other day.. when I discussed this with a colleague who I assumed incorrectly like me - didn't fake orgasms with clients that she felt providing the fantasy was ok to fake things. She had previously in duos cum very fast with the guys and when I quizzed her about it said she had very active imagination but wouldn't elaborate out of shyness.. Now of course I wonder if she was just a great faker. I too have elaborate fantasies.. some of which I'm too shy to share but others well.. I've even shared them on here. Knowing how much she enjoys her work I'm fairly certain she doesn't fake it all the time but I was surprised that she was okay with faking it with R.

I mean when I've seen couples or done duos the only time I'm certain a girl isn't faking is the 2 times I've seen a woman squirt. Otherwise I frankly don't have enough experience with women who assure me I've just made them cum to know if they are telling the truth. I'm always suprised if/when they do.. because I'm only bi-curious I'm not an expert by any means at pussy eating. Guys have often discussed on escort forums faking and some are sure all escorts and perhaps all women fake where others are sure they have what it takes to make women cum.

But really how do you know? I mean for us it's obvious when a guy cums. But for you guys how do you know for sure? My regular clients know me well enough I think to know that I cum for real when I do.. but often a guy wants to pleasure me in reality beyond his capability to do so.. some even ask what turns me on.. like there's some magic recipe. Usually guys who can rev up my engines never need to ask.. they intuitively know and that's the true magic.

We were discussing R.. who I mentioned in my Good/Bad/Ugly scenario and for different reasons why he irritated us. While she was okay with his personality for the most part and his unrealistic views of our feelings about him she claimed that she liked to 'let them keep their illusions' about it.

While I have to admit that I of course don't normally tell a client that he doesn't turn me on if that's the case.. I would not lie if asked directly. I figure if a guy can read between the lines that he's acceptable and welcome to rebook.. that's good enough at the minimum and if he's off the charts enjoyable.. he can easily figure that out too or I tell him! If he's not adept at figuring out either at all.. he probably shouldn't ask... because more than likely if it's bad news I will tell you.

Like a guy I saw a couple days ago who was only semi-hard but insisted I climb on top instead of getting him hard first with a blow job and then immediately asked me 'how did it feel'.. I couldn't help myself.. I said 'it's kind of soft'. Well don't ask if you don't want the obvious answer! Sometimes I wonder if it's some kind of test to see how honest I am. yeesh.. Plus by this time we were way over the time he had paid for and was asking me to take it slow.. so in my head I guess he deserved the brutal truth.. guys who squeeze 10 or 15 minutes out of me over the 1/2 hr wanting to do everything piss me off.. if you wanted an hour's worth of my time.. book an hour or book 45 minutes if you want something in between.

He managed to cum pretty fast and that's obviously why he didn't want me to blow him or he would have cum with the semi erection and missed out on being inside me. But realistically considering it was his first time with me (and he claimed as well first time outside of a massage parlour)and he had admitted how nervous he was he should have been more realistic.

SO.. do I fake it for real??? hell no... I think it's doing a huge dis-service to a guy to let him think he's blowing your mind in bed when he's 30 miles off base. How will he know when he's on base if he's given credit for wowing you off-base? Plus if he's a regular and he's continually doing something that irritates you why would you encourage it? You'd just have to experience the same thing each time..now having said that I just saw farmer dude today and I felt sorrier for myself today than for him today. He has a heart of gold for sure but he smells from years of smoking.. which not only is on him but in him if you know what I mean. The rough crackly old skin, the age spots that look like karposi's sarcoma. I've been feeling a wee bit under the weather so his smells/irritating voice/laugh were a bit hard to handle today. So.. by seeing him as acceptable I guess I'm encouraging his behaviour.. frankly because like with R.. he's not trainable. They're both way too old and it's not something you can train.

Speaking of training behaviour, I heard of a book once that basically said you train humans like dogs.. reward the behaviour you want to reappear.. (well it was talking about women training men but it applies to all humans). When R asks me if he licked me well.. I say it was fine.. which really means.. are you kidding me? you have no skills whatsoever in that dept.. but yes.. you may keep trying unless you hurt me with your lack of skill. When reinforcing the behaviour you like smile.. now of course I smile with him and he thinks he's making me enjoy myself.. but I smile out of lack of what else to do! He looks at me with such glee in his face that I can't help but smile back.. so I guess I'm reinforcing what I don't want..

What brought this up was in discussing him with this colleague.. I was explaining that he had licked me (I was getting way beyond bored at this point) and I asked him if he was ready to fuck.. whereupon he asked me if I had cum enough yet? I was astonished that he asked me.. what cum? I hadn't even moaned...because I DON'T FAKE IT. I just didn't answer him.. and we fucked. Well we tried.. R is older and a bit of limp dick so not willing to try viagra yet.. we aren't always successful in that dept.

I mean I lie enough in my personal life.. I meet new people all the time at parties/bars etc and I do have friends who I can be completely upfront with that know what I do thank god.. but acquaintences I meet.. I don't blurt out that I'm a hooker when asked what I do. Lieing in my job is part of it. I don't answer when someone asks my real name. I don't tell a client the whole truth about what kind of day I'm having if he asks.. etc etc.. but I don't fake fluid.. so if I'm getting wet...you are doing something right boys :) and thankfully there are more out there who know what they're doing than not! Those are the times I love my job..

Sometimes I go to meet my girlfriends right after a particularly hot session and I'm glowing when I talk abou it.. they look astonished.. b/c you know they expect the bad stories I just spoke about to be the norm.. but really it's a good mixture of both.. and for me the good always outweighs the bad..but isn't the bad more interesting for you readers? really?? it is for me to tell ;)

back to porn.. my scene from Fuck my Mom and Me

This was a fun scene to shoot.. The girl they initally had to shoot with me was apparently not enough like me in looks whereas this girl was so adorable and could have been my daughter had I ever had one. She immediately turned on the high energy fucking when the camera was rolling and at certain points I realized I was watching her fuck and not fucking/playing myself! 3somes at the best of times can leave you confused as to what goes where and with whom to play.. but I wasn't allowed to play with her sexually at all in this scene because of incest issues..even though obviously we were only acting as mother and daughter. The male actor was a great guy to work with and ended up hiring me to work when he was directing the "I wanna cum inside your mom" video. Mario was fun and professional and we hit it off as friends later on... completely different experience from shooting my friends hot mom.. where the guy was a complete robot and had such a hard time coming it made my job waaaayyy more difficult than it had to be. I would be easily convinced that that dude was not only on viagra but other 'recreational drugs' as well as likely having had no sleep/partying all night long before the shoot. I would never shoot with him again. All in all I had mostly fun shoots.. but him and the actor from I wanna cum inside your mom are 2 guys I would not shoot with again. For this film however I enjoyed myself and would shoot with Mario again anytime.. not sure if my enjoyment is genuine? go to 30 minutes in and see how red my neck is..Anyway.. here it is!

Fuck My Mom and Me 3

what's in H1N1?

here's a blog I was recently introduced to that lists the ingredients in this vaccine as well as links to other sources that may help educate those still on the fence. HERE

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Face-in-Hole

some might be curious to see some of the photos I've done of myself in faceinhole so I thought I'd add a few here.



























Wednesday, November 4, 2009

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

I hesitate to put a percentage on which clients are good for whatever reasons.. simply because when you do that.. you create it. (watch the secret dumbasses who still haven't watched it if you don't know what I mean) In one way or another all clients are good. How are they good even when they're bad? They're a paying customer!!

The Bad.. how do I define bad? See the pussy chewers rant for starters (a favorite to make one of my girlfriends laugh). Unpleasant clients are ones who touch me in a way that's unpleasant. This could be that they have rough hands.. a rough face and don't see the problem with rubbing their 5 o'clock shadow into my tender soft skin. It could be a smoker who stinks like they've been in a bar full of smoke for 4 hrs marinating in it.. it could be a bad cologne that lingers in my room for a full 24 hrs afterward (note: No cologne is appropriate to wear for sex in my book.. None..but some are definitely just awful while others a delightful..just be cleanly washed) It can be a client who is too rough in bed.. a 'rutter' as one of my male friends describes it. I don't mind and often enjoy a thoroughly hard fucking but some guys get too excited and grab my hips so hard in doggie that they almost pinch my skin and bruise me as an example... thankfully usually those guys because they are so wound up.. at least cum fast. A really bad client is someone who can't get hard and can't cum. The much older clients can of course be like this.. but I rarely get them anymore.. I seem to cater more to the younger guys.. hey MILF porn has it's perks :p Plus a lot of girls won't see the younger guys.. and frankly I think they're missing out. Age is not a factor in my book.. but I do prefer younger/fitter guys if I have my choice. Most of my clients are under 50.

So I have one regular client I really don't enjoy seeing (we'll call him R).. but he pays and some days I'm in a more tolerant mood than others which is when I agree to see him. He's also under no illusions that I'm crazy about him but that doesn't deter him from enjoying himself :) The first time he tried to see me.. was about 8 years ago when I lived on Cambridge st. He showed up for his first appt with about 40 dollars less than my fee (it could have been more I don't recall)... claiming he'd just got a parking ticket or some excuse. This infuriates me because 90% of the time it's a lie and if it's remotely true.. you call me and cancel the appt with plenty of notice.. you don't just show up with less money and expect me to follow thru. I gave him a harsh lecture ( I was still on sugar back then) and told him to turn around as I was going to boot him in the ass on his way out.. and I did! (I don't normally do this but I must have also been enraged by something else he did.. and he does irritate me often with something stupid to this day)

He later phoned me over and over again to beg me to let him rebook and eventually I did. Many times over the years I've refused to see him and passed him on to one of my colleagues but I've mellowed.. and I've cut way down on advertising and now prefer a lower volume of clients so I keep most of my regulars even those I'd rather not see as often.

So.. why is he 'bad'? He's a very excitable guy.. and his hands move in a way that I would describe as fidgety.. he doesn't have any skill whatsoever in bed but wants to think that you are enjoying his endeavors. I don't.. but I do feel sorry for him. That's my main motivation to see him.. yeah yeah.. hooker with a heart of gold. No.. he pays. He will never ever again try to short me.

He also has this weird habit of patting my twat thru my clothes on the way in and sometimes on the way out and trying to kiss me even though he knows I don't kiss. He's strange but completely harmless.. just annoying.

The good.. the very very good. Thank god.. I have good sex with many of my clients.. Doubt I could do this job for this long if all my clients were annoying. Here's the funny thing.. some guys think they are the only guy I might see who is nice. This is the one timer.. not a regular.. he is the type who would 'never normally do this' so he thinks all my other clients are gross.

Then I have a few great clients I genuinely adore.. and get excited to see.. and they question my enjoyment of them.. yeah yeah.. you say that to all the guys. My response to that is.. can you see how wet I am right now??? They still aren't reassured.. or maybe they just have to hear it :)

Anyway.. what makes a client good? They are the ones I finish up with and after they leave I sit and bask in my glow.. and say to myself "I can't believe I just got paid for that!" yes.. some make me cum.. but that's not what makes it good. I can cum with an ugly client so long as he's reasonably good at licking. I have a good repertoire of fantasy scenarios in my head to help me along :)

The 'good' client is freshly or a reasonable fascimle of freshly clean. No skanky ball sweat odor.. etc etc.. he has a gentle but firm touch.. is very appreciative of my sensuality (has a huge hard on) and can fuck me in a way that is delicious.. You would think not that hard to do.. but fucking is like dancing.. Everyone has their own sense of style (or not) and you can't teach that to someone. You are either compatible as dancing partners or you're not!

A good client can be someone who finishes up early and is very satisfied.. time wise that's desirable.. but frankly some clients I enjoy and get disappointed if they come way too soon.. so it's a win even if they finish early. I mean who doesn't get excited when the teacher let you out of school a few minutes before the bell rang. It was decadent right? and you felt superior to the other kids still in their classrooms.

Speaking of which that's another reason I see another regular.. who pays me for a full hour but is always done in about 15 minutes.. he smells horrible.. he's a farmer and a heavy smoker. I've had him shower a few times but he just ends up smelling up my bathroom! He also has a laugh like a creepy hyena.. but a genuinely nice person and again.. it's the money factor (good pay) and feeling sorry for him combined with the quick appt factor.

Again.. I digress. Back to the good.

So yesterday.. good client. I've only seen him twice but fuck. he's hot. he was so turned on by me the first time he actually said 'marry me' in the middle of it.

Day before hot client outcall.. gorgeous.. done quickly (I was disappointed) but he was obviously overworked and didn't have the energy for a 2nd round. so.. good sex. quick call and home to bed early for me. Win win..

A couple of weeks ago.. I had this hot guy who was visiting from near Toronto for work.. hopefully he will be back but who the fuck knows.. yes.. sometimes like in these cases with newbies and with regulars.. I do go 'schwing!' He was able to make me squirt over and over for a good 20 minutes I think.. No idea how.. and again not that important to me.. but I kept thinking I wish we could have gotten this on camera because I don't normally do this! He had this way of fingering me in a way that didn't hurt and alternating it with licking me that well.. he played me like a violin. I have only had 2 other guys make me squirt and it was very uncomfortable.. they poked my g-spot to hard but they made me gush.. unpleasant for me. I soooo prefer to be fucked. and this guy did not disappoint in that dept either. Gorgeous cock and a good fuck.. fuck I hope he calls again on his next trip to Ottawa.. yummy.

Yesterday I also had my ex over.. we still see each other for sex about once/month as the sex was always good.. and we turn each other on in a big way. It's just not carryover to a relationship for me and I think for him it's fine too. The sex is very therapeutic for both of us. He does all the work.. I just get to lie back and enjoy.. and when someone is inside me that turns me on.. I could go on for hours. Sometimes we do! yes.. he also goes down on me.. but frankly that's more for his enjoyment than mine. I would rather he just stay inside me. Sure I like to be licked and to cum.. but nothing compares to that steady endorphin rush of being rubbed on the inside with a cock in just the right way.. and NO dildos do not work in the same way. It's actually mostly the grinding motion. How do I know that? I have a client who refuses to fuck me but loves to dildo me.. when he does it with a strap-on and cums in his condom where he's got his dick next to the strapon it's better. If he's just dildoing me it's less enjoyable. When a guy grinds his hard dick up against my leg or titfucks me.. it's the humping motion that I respond to and yes I can enjoy a titfuck.. obviously not as much as a vaginal fuck but hey.. it's the client's money.. to a point he can spend his money shot wherever he wants :p

Sexy bum boy.. one of my regular clients.. he is cute.. a sweet gentle lover and has an ass you can bounce a quarter off of.. he never goes down on me.. and that's okay but a bit disappointing.. but he makes up for it in the sensuality of the session.. I always look forward to seeing him. Shit.. getting hot just thinking about it.

Surfer boy.. he's been a regular of mine for about 8 years. Schwing! He's done a few videos with me in the beginning.. and if he wasn't married I have no doubt we'd be doing porn full time. He's got a super dirty mind and loves having the mirror in the room. He's well built.. always immaculately dressed and just a bit on the arrogant side that it turns me on.. then it's his tender side I love..he's soooo passionate.

Cabana Boy. He's also a regular client I've had for 8 years or so.. Why is he called Cabana Boy? Because in my hour long appt with him he always always always.. give me a massage! then he licks me (claims I trained him now when he sees other escorts) and eventually gives me a good hard fucking. He brings me presents on the anniversary of our first appt, my birthday, xmas and a housewarming gift every time I move.. which is frequently... and we have gotten to be very good friends in our appts. We can literally talk about anything as well as share a laugh easily. He's a client who believe it or not.. hadn't had sex in 12 years with his wife before booking me. I feel honoured when someone takes a ton of time in making their choice for a compatible escort and then chooses me.. there's no feeling like it. One of my male friends (non-client) likened me to a sexual priestess. Women who whose job was to basically heal thru sex and dammit.. I resonate with that. I know in my heart my job is one of a healing ministry if you will.. and it's really too bad it isn't revered in our culture except in our own micro-culture.

oh. almost forgot. The ugly. I've got a new hobby.. it's called face-in-hole I've been having a blast putting my face into holes along with a bunch of my friends on facebook. I have yet to do a faceinhole with golum but my client previously referred to as R isn't really ugly but his sort of irratic almost creeping clawing behaviour made me laugh the other day as I pictured golum's face on him. I'm sure he gleefully thought my smile was due to his romantic gestures on his body. R.. doesn't have internet so I'm not really worried about him reading this.. if anyone might think it mean of me to write about him. I mean he's completely harmless.. or I wouldn't see him.

here's golum on youtube (keep volume in mind) if you have no idea what I'm talking about.

SO.. what am I trying to say? Even when a client might be annoying, irritating, smelly or whatnot.. I find a way to have some sort of fun. If I can't have fun.. I use my 'heart of gold' to feel sorry for him. If I can't do either.. I refuse to see the client again.. I have done with R several times in the past.. but now I have become better at "making a silk purse out of a sow's ear" and I also relish my good clients in my mind with glee.. to make up for it. Thank god for the good clients!!!

top 10 reasons I became a hooker

first of all.. it's funny how friends/admirers and acquaintances cringe when I call myself a hooker.. but remember xavier hollander? the happy hooker? It's like whore.. it's okay when it's used as a term of employment or endearment. Any word has a negative connotation when you use it to hurt someone... so don't use words to hurt people! I love the term hooker. I hate S.P. (service provider) as I think of ISP. Escort is okay.. and most of my friends etc prefer this but hooker makes me twinkle when I say it. I picture the girls in saloons in the old days or the girls who would meet the boys as they came off of the ships. I'm sure I must have done this in a past life..
anyway.. here we go!

10. I love being able to work literally for an hour or 2 a day and the rest of the day is for me.

9. Never knowing who I'm going to meet (obviously with new clients). It's like opening a surprise bag of candy like I used to do when I was a kid. Yes you might be getting a useless plastic ring but you still want to try again! Other times you score :p

8. The flattery. I get emails from guys loving my pics and telling me how they've jerked off to my pics. Sure that's flattering to a point.. but when a guy books me and in person tells me how he's fantasized about this meeting for so long and I can fulfil that fantasy.. that's satisfying. (this does not mean I look forward to random emails from guys telling me they jerk off to my pics... so don't jump to email me this)

7. The excitement. I can be in a bar or even a mall or walking the street and smile at someone.. knowing in some cases that person is fantasizing about what it would be like to fuck me. Any one of them could book me and it's like having met with them in a bar bathroom.. not that I've ever done that *wink*

6. The shopping! Of course shopping for clothes for my job is fun.. but the extra money this job puts in my pocket lets me easily splurge on things for myself.

5. The variety. Sure I enjoy having sex with someone I love in a way that I can't enjoy with clients.. but the variety of gentlemen callers is a lovely spice of it's own.

4. The anonymity. No.. my real name is not Carrie Moon.. and no you may not find out my real name. BUT I love being Carrie Moon. I've had the name Carrie for literally 20+ years.. almost 1/2 my adult life. I picked it out.. so I love it. I loved playing dressup as a kid. I love Halloween.. I get to be in 'costume' every day of my life. I've probably heard my name called Carrie more than my own name in my life.. and I do enjoy it.

3. The secret life. Yes.. having a secret life is annoying a lot of the time. I don't tell people what I do in most social circles but my main friends/family know what I do.. it's very stressful. But everything has 2 sides and a silver lining. Having a secret life is a bit delicious in it's own way.

2. THE MONEY! of course this is the reason initially I got into this line of work.. it is lucrative and I needed to find a way to pay for my tuition and living costs when I did my post grad. That reason isn't going to change. Would I still do it if I were getting paid what I do in an office? say..40 grand/year? hmmm. hard to say.. but probably.. because the Number 1 reason I am a hooker>>>

1. I'm My Own Boss!! While I'm a team player and a great assistant or even a trainer and I've worked in several different industries over the years I don't have anyone to tell me what to do. I have a great work ethic and can motivate myself fine. I have the choice at any point in time to say.. I don't want this client. I rarely exercise this right.. very rarely.. but having it is the point. I can chose the hours I want to be available. I can choose the acts I wish to participate in and how I wish to engage in them. Freedom is the most desirable aspect of this job and I have it in spades. I have the freedom to chose how I view my job.. as do we all and I love my job.

Oops.. the other number 1 reason I love my job. The sex! Yes.. even bad sex can be good..
next blog on that.. the good the bad and the ugly :)

Desperate Mothers and Wives 9 - my scene

desperate mothers and wives 9

this was my last movie I filmed in LA before heading back to Toronto last May. I blogged about my experience.. where I went out with a bang fucking the director/producer each for a few minutes and blowing the camera man :) This whole group of hotties (many of them also star in movies as well as produce them) were a blast to hang out with.