Blackpilled

 I was "blackpilled" I guess about 7 or 8 years ago.

I was watching a past life video where a young boy had told his parents where he had lived and been murdered. Supposedly when they went there he pointed to where his body was buried and even pointed out the killer. They dug up the body and arrested the man.

This was not the first time I had looked into this kind of stuff but it led me a red pill set of channels on YouTube exposing things like the faked moon landing and I don't recall now all else but definitely we got into Epstein through Q.. the pedo networks and the adren0chrome.

YouTube would refer me to other channels and away I went down the rabbit holes. 

All the truther channels that had redpilled me were removed from YouTube after hunter Biden laptop was exposed. That woke a ton more people up 

Why censor "conspiracy theories" if they were nonsense? Especially all at once. No coincidence.

That's ok. Other platforms like rumble and bitchute supplied us 

During this time I had moved out to the country to a mobile home park. It was so inexpensive to live and I started onlyfans and cut way back on my trips to escort. It was a lifesaver because I was not well. I ended up with a bad mold problem on top of my other health conditions. I didn't realize I had a leak til several months in.

The combination of this plus the isolation and the blackpilling made me very depressed.

I suffered from travel anxiety after I had been on thyroid meds a few years prior. So I couldn't travel with advance notice or I wouldnt sleep for days prior. I could only go last minute and would often trick myself into not going and then ok go!

Like I would only tell my regular escort clients I was available after I'd got settled. 

It worked fine for me. This didn't just involve escorting trips. I wanted badly to attend a marconics training course and get a treatment but since I wasn't allowed in the US my other options were England or Costa Rica. Obviously I chose CR.

I booked last minute. Got my friend in Burlington to puppysit Max and away I went 

The course was (now I know quite demonic) but the place I booked was airbnb paradise.

It was my 2nd trip to CR and I did not want to leave..

Once you watch the testimonials in many of the new age to Jesus videos on my playlist you'll discover that these healing courses and treatments summon "spirits" who are of demonic origin. This of course was why I could never get true healing!!

I had taken bioenergy healing level 1 and 2 a few years prior . I did love it. But 2 ladies in the group literally died a mere year or so after (of what causes I don't know as I only saw obits on Facebook)

The instructor often looked supremely full of anger..but it was passed off as cultural. I knew it wasn't. He was very jealous and greedy and seemed to hate people in general ..but boy did he perk up to one guy who thought he might get involved in the trainings as a business partner.

In my opinion he didn't seem aligned with the energy of healing. I didn't know then what I've learned now in the past few months of watching Deliverance testimonies that demons can counterfeit healings. I was certain that only God could heal. And of course that's true. Demons can copy healing experience but it never lasts