do you watch too much porn?

Sometimes I wonder.. which comes first.. the chicken or the egg on this one.
Porn is 95% (I'm just guessing here) still made by men... and definitely for men. Although the stats say that 25% is bought by women (quoted on Oprah..but I have my doubts). But do they make porn the way they do because men want it that way or do men want it that way because they don't know any other way? I worry that younger kids watch some of the more vulgar stuff (I think throat fucking and ass fucking are way too overblown in porn now) and think that's normal sex.

Obviously.. it's primarily visual and then auditory although the auditory part usually sucks straight from the horrible acting to the cheesy music and fake sounds.. so sometimes turning off the sound works better.

I was commenting to my ex-boyfriend the other day.. who I still fuck. OOps.. he actually hates that term and in truth it's hard for me to call it fucking.. but making love would add too much connotation of a place we can't go back to. It was almost tantric and we were at it for about 2 hrs! Both of us were blown away by how long we kept it up.. because it was frankly just so fucking delicious. Anyway.. my comment was this - I wish we could video this and show kirlian photography/videography of how sensual it is. I've even commented to girlfriends of mine mostly jokingly that I'd love to lend him to them so they could experience this type of sex.

This type of sex is so sensual and so what I really really want.. that most men have no clue how to really do this or please a woman this way. It involves me being on the bottom and him lying pretty much directly on top of me for a good 80% of the time. I love it when a guy I'm really into is just inside me all the time. It's slow fucking.. not banging for most of the time.. and he just knows how to vary the speed and his actions from kissing my mouth to my tits like a cook knows how to add the right spices. Yes he can eat me out very well too.. but frankly I had sex for many years without enjoying that pleasure properly or even knowing how to masturbate and I started having sex in university! I'm a kinesthetic person.. so it's very hard for me to describe what happens.. which is why I wish to be videotaped.. but ya.. that's not gonna happen. He would never go for it. Oh well.. someday perhaps I'll have a person in my life that I have that kind of intimacy with who will allow me to film it.

Describing this kind of feeling.. the euphoria would be like trying to describe how cheesecake tastes.. it's indescribable isn't it?

The problem is without that kirlian photography I doubt the viewers would get that much out of it. If you like the auditory portion.. as many of you already know.. I'm pretty vocal.. so you'd enjoy that. But visually there's no openness to the penetration and I don't blow him. Yeah.. you heard me. I rarely blow him!!! why? because that's the male fantasy. I do enjoy 69 and I do get off giving head if I'm also masturbating and yes I even get enjoyment out of giving head sometimes just for the response I get.. but it's not my fantasy.. I provide your fantasy and if I were a guy that would be my fantasy too!

Oh yeah.. so getting back to porn. As usual I get off on tangents and get back to what my thought was to begin with. Doesn't all porn start with the guy getting blown? and end with him cumming on her face/tits/ass? ...Male fantasy. Guys from a tiny age are fascinated with their dicks (yes I'm jealous!) and once they've learned it can squirt white creamy liquid they want to see it over and over again and leave it everywhere they can get away with :) It's my job to help them do that.

Now of course this may seem confusing to many of my clients that I would post my desires this way.. but this is how I like sex in my personal life. As a business while I enjoy sharing my body with strangers I do not kiss so I'm not a true GFE as they say. It's something I enjoy in relationships as part of lovemaking... but with clients. It's fucking.. porn style.. without the facial ha ha..